I do not want your sympathy. It's fake and unwanted.

[lysithia]

Well Christmas has come and gone, and another "new" year is approaching. So much has changed in the last month. Changes that I never saw coming. I'm stuck in a turning point, but I don't know where I am turning. School starts in about 2 weeks, and I'm not enrolled in any classes, and I don't even know if I'm going to school this semester. I want to

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[apotsticker]

thats absolute bullshit melissa. the people who have been here for you all these years you neglect and ignore... tell me the last time you called me huh? or the last time you actually made it to our plans? or how about that nice stunt on my birthday, you know, where you didnt even try to find my phone number, funny, im in the phone book and you knew i was home, or you know where my house is too. funny huh? funny how the other night you said youd be right over about 900 times and i waited for you to come only so youd leave about five mintues later. funny how last night you decided that you wanted to come out after you had already disappointed me and ruined my night by saying no no lauren im a night owl i want to come out i swear im coming... and five seconds later you bail on me. its one thing to bail on me once in a night but then to just turn around and get my hopes up again. nice melissa... nice. you are a disappointment to me, not because you mess up but because you just dont freakin care or try. stop being so consumed with how somebody new loves you and why dont you fucking remember the people who loved you before. who have always called, and never bailed. why dont you remember the people who told you that you were way too good for brad from the beginning. the people who know what youre really worth or only ever have awesome things to say about you. the people who will still be your friend after you do shitty stuff like youve been doing. how about you remember that what happened with brad can happen with any boy, even nice little jonathan. its all a possibility melissa. what is not a possibility is me dropping you as a friend, thats just retarded and not what i said at all. i said you wouldnt care, and quite frankly, at first, you wouldnt. you wouldnt care until you realized that there are people in this world who notice you and see you and think the world of you and you dont care about them because theyre not boys. im still your friend, but i think youre a huge selfish asshole, and i think you should admit it too. you took my favorite part of christmas away, spending it with the people you love. thanks for loving me back..... and remembering how ive always loved you. thanks. the end.

[lysithia]

so, im selfish. i apologize for all the qualties that i have. when is the last time that you called me? i am sorry about the other night. look, i suck. right now i just want to go away. give me time. please.

[apotsticker]

what the hell, give you time from what, never seeing you... yeah okay melissa. and you are selfish, you dont think when youre hurting other peoples feelings when they wait for hours for you to show up or call....yeah ill give you time to realize you shouldnt be irritated with me for telling you how i feel, or that you blow me off... not the other way. and for your information i do call you, all the time, youre always at work, and you dont call me back.

[apotsticker]

furthermore this is retarded and should be over and you should just call me and explain what the fuck is going on because this obviously has more to it than you and me. you dont need a break from me, i see you once every blue moon.