call the doctor, cause i'm freaking out lover.
how is it that guys have us think about them each day & every night? it's like they sink through our minds & purposly make us think about that one particular guy we "think" we want to go out with. that's how i am with patrick. & it totally sucks. whenever i am in class, & a teacher assigns some paper to me, i'm unable to think about the assignment, i'm only to busy dreaming about patrick. i can never wait until lunchtime, because that's when we hangout & it's the only time we see eachother through out the whole day. although, today's lunch, was varient. patrick barely even spoke to me, & when he did, it was one time when he asked if i could get him a cherry pepsi in the girl's locker room. (where we sit, that's the closest vending machine), & so i did. obviously. i couldn't say no to him; just looking at his face, i want to kiss him all over. i hesitate to hug him, because i'm afraid i'll never let go. isn't that pathetic? i'm sick in love. that's what i am. so horribly sick in love. & the only way i can cross out sick, is when/if we ever go out. then i'd just be in love. (i have a feeling that isn't going to happen, which breaks my heart). we are planning to hangout one weekend, probably going to see a movie or something. i'm not sure yet. but maybe that day, everything will change. to the good from the bad. i can't hangout with him this weekend because i'm going to have a fabulous time in lake havasu with my babygirl elina. i so, can't wait. maybe the hot guys in havasu will take my mind off of patrick, but i highly doubt that'll happen. since after all, i'm like an unhealed puppy who's so completely in love & i don't have any real treatment to get rid of the sickness. not a medicine to heal me. i just realized that patrick, himself.. is the only way that can improve me. at any rate, i believe you are getting tired of reading about my love life. (if, you are reading my journal, that is). so i reckon i should move onto a new topic, subject, whatever. or perphaps put this entry to an end. ^_^