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So... past few days have been okay. My grandfather passed away today around 12:30pm EST.. It's pretty saddening, considering I didn't even get to say goodbye. But, my father mentioned it wouldn't have mattered because he was pretty incoherent in his past few weeks. He went through a ton of problems that ranged from kidney failure to heart attacks. I honestly didn't know he was that bad. My father kinda didn't tell me the 100% truth until 2 days ago, mentioning he was in a HOSPICE and they were EXPECTING him to die quickly. Then I get an IM around 1pm EST from my father saying my grandpa died 30 mins ago. Great.. Great...
In other news, the amanda situation is done. Dead. And completely and utterly over with. She played games and she runs from people who try to help. She's very unstable and likely will end up never being happy.
So, I'm apparently meeting a new girl on friday. Her name is Rachel. Trying to be optimistic here, but you never know. I mean, the past 2 girls I've tried to hang out with both ended up not being anything. I mean, I'm friends with the first one, but I don't see me ever talking to amanda again, at least not for a while. So, I'm being really skeptical that this new girl will really be a change. I'll take it slow and be flirty for a change. I really need to flirt more. I have a problem with being too laid back sometimes and I miss oppertunities because I basically chicken out. I mean.. keep in mind I was with my ex gf for 3 1/2 years, so I didn't have to flirt with anyone or anything. So since we broke up a few months back, I'm like a fish out of water, totally clueless still, lol...
Wish me luck on rachel friday and Rest in peace to my grandfather Ron Blosser. I hope he knows I did love him very much and I will never forget him.
In other news, the amanda situation is done. Dead. And completely and utterly over with. She played games and she runs from people who try to help. She's very unstable and likely will end up never being happy.
So, I'm apparently meeting a new girl on friday. Her name is Rachel. Trying to be optimistic here, but you never know. I mean, the past 2 girls I've tried to hang out with both ended up not being anything. I mean, I'm friends with the first one, but I don't see me ever talking to amanda again, at least not for a while. So, I'm being really skeptical that this new girl will really be a change. I'll take it slow and be flirty for a change. I really need to flirt more. I have a problem with being too laid back sometimes and I miss oppertunities because I basically chicken out. I mean.. keep in mind I was with my ex gf for 3 1/2 years, so I didn't have to flirt with anyone or anything. So since we broke up a few months back, I'm like a fish out of water, totally clueless still, lol...
Wish me luck on rachel friday and Rest in peace to my grandfather Ron Blosser. I hope he knows I did love him very much and I will never forget him.