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It's ironic how I'm there for people when they're down and how i try to be there for people and all. When things come my way, nobody is here for me. Why is that? Why don't people have the fucking decency nowdays to at least give you some mutual respect and fucking be there for you when you're down? IS THAT TOO MUCH TO FUCKING ASK? JESUS CHRIST....
Long story short. I owe a lot in credit debt. No joke. Trying to take care of this shit so badly, been trying to sell so much stuff and be frugal with money. I'm fucking up in school and i don't even care, it's like I'm totally un fucking motivated and I can't figure out why. BOTH of my grandfathers are about to fucking die. My dad's father is in the worst situation. His bodily functions are deteriorating and I can't even go see him or talk to him. My mother's father isn't as bad, but he did come close to dying. I can't really go see him either because it always causes time conflicts. I was never that close to him like I was my dad's father. but he's still my grandfather and I won't have any grandfathers left once they die. Story on my dad's father, he's in a hospice now, they're waiting for him to die and pumping him with drugs to ease the pain as his body slowly lets out. My mother's father is similar, he's VERY very weak right now and he's honestly a good guy. They both are.. they both worked really fucking hard to provide for my parents and it's like i dunno.. i'm a total fuck up compared to them, i've accomplished nothing in my life. I lose everything I love and I just sit around and cry about it cuz I'm rly bad at dealing with shit sometimes, I always handle it wrong and fuck everything up.
RIP to my grandpa blosser who will be passing any fucking day now, my father said to pray for him so he dies in his sleep peacefully.
Rip to my grandpa paxton.. whenever he goes. My mom is real torn up about his health, but he's held out over the past 3 years on the edge, so we've kinda built up a feeling that he'll be okay.. kidding ourselves I know..
RIP to having fucking friends or anyone there for you.
Long story short. I owe a lot in credit debt. No joke. Trying to take care of this shit so badly, been trying to sell so much stuff and be frugal with money. I'm fucking up in school and i don't even care, it's like I'm totally un fucking motivated and I can't figure out why. BOTH of my grandfathers are about to fucking die. My dad's father is in the worst situation. His bodily functions are deteriorating and I can't even go see him or talk to him. My mother's father isn't as bad, but he did come close to dying. I can't really go see him either because it always causes time conflicts. I was never that close to him like I was my dad's father. but he's still my grandfather and I won't have any grandfathers left once they die. Story on my dad's father, he's in a hospice now, they're waiting for him to die and pumping him with drugs to ease the pain as his body slowly lets out. My mother's father is similar, he's VERY very weak right now and he's honestly a good guy. They both are.. they both worked really fucking hard to provide for my parents and it's like i dunno.. i'm a total fuck up compared to them, i've accomplished nothing in my life. I lose everything I love and I just sit around and cry about it cuz I'm rly bad at dealing with shit sometimes, I always handle it wrong and fuck everything up.
RIP to my grandpa blosser who will be passing any fucking day now, my father said to pray for him so he dies in his sleep peacefully.
Rip to my grandpa paxton.. whenever he goes. My mom is real torn up about his health, but he's held out over the past 3 years on the edge, so we've kinda built up a feeling that he'll be okay.. kidding ourselves I know..
RIP to having fucking friends or anyone there for you.