how are you?
So, the last 24 hours of my life have been somewhat miserable.
I picked up my boyfriend from the airport on friday the 27th of May and after spending 5 excellent-couldn't-get-much-better-than-this kind of days--I had to leave him in Ft. Knox yesterday.
I hate that I can't even have control over my own relationship. All that I want to do is be with him--be normal--but heaven forbid I have that right now.
I'm tired of people telling me that it'll be okay and that time is going to fly by.
I'm tired of people telling me that it's not going to work.
I'm tired of people telling me that I will find another 'Ed' in Germany.
No, No, and ABSOLUTELY NOT.
I don't understand why people are getting so angry at the fact that I want this relationship to last for a very long time. No one can accept that fact that I'm not ten anymore and that I'm capable of making my own decisions--and gosh damnit--I'm frickin' allowed to have a serious relationship, care about someone, have that person care about me just as much, AND PLAN A FUTURE.
My dad tells me to 'put it in neutral--you have 2 years that you're going to be gone'. He's so supportive at times but others he can just completely demoralize me.
I miss Ed. I don't care that it's only been a little over 24 hours--I frickin' miss him as much as I can miss a person. He is what makes me smile in the morning. He is what makes me look forward to tomorrow. He is what makes me love who I am. He is a one of a kind. A fish that you don't throw back. He is the best that I've found yet. He opens my car door, he laughs at my dumb jokes and when I sing and dance in the car, he picks me up and twirls me around, he just likes to cuddle up next to me during the night.
He is as confident in us getting through the next 2 years as I am.
He likes me for everything that I am.
So, someone please explain to me why I should give up something this great. The greatest thing to have yet to happen in my life.
Why should I automatically have to assume that things won't work out just because it's a 2 year long-distance relationship?
I wouldn't be able to breath.
Maybe I'll just piss everyone off and run off and marry the boy.
Then what would they have to say about that???
I picked up my boyfriend from the airport on friday the 27th of May and after spending 5 excellent-couldn't-get-much-better-than-this kind of days--I had to leave him in Ft. Knox yesterday.
I hate that I can't even have control over my own relationship. All that I want to do is be with him--be normal--but heaven forbid I have that right now.
I'm tired of people telling me that it'll be okay and that time is going to fly by.
I'm tired of people telling me that it's not going to work.
I'm tired of people telling me that I will find another 'Ed' in Germany.
No, No, and ABSOLUTELY NOT.
I don't understand why people are getting so angry at the fact that I want this relationship to last for a very long time. No one can accept that fact that I'm not ten anymore and that I'm capable of making my own decisions--and gosh damnit--I'm frickin' allowed to have a serious relationship, care about someone, have that person care about me just as much, AND PLAN A FUTURE.
My dad tells me to 'put it in neutral--you have 2 years that you're going to be gone'. He's so supportive at times but others he can just completely demoralize me.
I miss Ed. I don't care that it's only been a little over 24 hours--I frickin' miss him as much as I can miss a person. He is what makes me smile in the morning. He is what makes me look forward to tomorrow. He is what makes me love who I am. He is a one of a kind. A fish that you don't throw back. He is the best that I've found yet. He opens my car door, he laughs at my dumb jokes and when I sing and dance in the car, he picks me up and twirls me around, he just likes to cuddle up next to me during the night.
He is as confident in us getting through the next 2 years as I am.
He likes me for everything that I am.
So, someone please explain to me why I should give up something this great. The greatest thing to have yet to happen in my life.
Why should I automatically have to assume that things won't work out just because it's a 2 year long-distance relationship?
I wouldn't be able to breath.
Maybe I'll just piss everyone off and run off and marry the boy.
Then what would they have to say about that???