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So, things sucked for a really long time. Then they got better. Now they suck again. Why? Who the hell knows. I'm not even sure I do. But what I do know is that so many times lately I find myself thinking about high school and all the great people I became friends with and all the great memories we made. Then I wish I could turn back time and go back to those people because I never once felt like this. Ever. People back then loved me, appreciated me and didn't make me feel like the things that make me Lynni or that make me happy were stupid. They made me feel like I was OK the way that I was. And isn't that the way it should be?
I guess what I'm saying is that I guess I can really only rely on those people. And the two that I have in my life now and see pretty much every day are a constant reminder of that. They keep me holding onto hope that maybe I can meet people like that again. Because it's people like them that I need. Not people that make me not want to be me.
I liked it better when I could put a fake smile on my face and everyone knew that it was fake...
I guess what I'm saying is that I guess I can really only rely on those people. And the two that I have in my life now and see pretty much every day are a constant reminder of that. They keep me holding onto hope that maybe I can meet people like that again. Because it's people like them that I need. Not people that make me not want to be me.
I liked it better when I could put a fake smile on my face and everyone knew that it was fake...