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I had a seizure yesterday. I brought the boy lunch at work and we hung out during his break. Nana was gonna come pick me up at one, so we started waiting outside about ten or fifteen minutes till. I felt like I was going to vomit, I was freezing cold and I got dizzy. The proverbial waves of darkness washed over me and I told Jay to hold me, because I knew I was going to pass out. He thought I was joking until I stopped breathing and started convulsing and twitching. I guess I was out for about two minutes. You see, I was there, but there are parts I don't remember! Jay says my pulse stopped, but maybe he just felt it wrong? He insists that I almost died. I came to, and my nana was there by then. Breathing hurt, talking or moving seemed like WAY too much effort. But I got into her car after a few minutes and napped for an hour or so. I've had a migraine ever since. But life goes on. I really didn't feel like going to school this morning... I'm trying not to make a big deal out of this. Everyone else is doing it for me. I feel so badly for Jay. He's freaking out. And my mom... my little brother has severe epilepsy, and he's autistic so he can't communicate what's going on to the people around him. So he just falls wherever and bangs up his head and limbs. So now Mom has two epileptic kids to worry about. Am I really epileptic? I'm not sure. I had a seizure last year too. I need to see a doctor, but I don't have insurance until next January. I just hope nothing happens until then.