Thinking and overthinking ...
First off, thanks so much for the lovely birthday wishes guys! I wasn't expecting them, particularly since I've been so quiet lately and it really made me smile. Thank you!
So, I'm 31. I had a good birthday, I have finally got a Kindle (well, I will when it arrives) It may simply end up as pretty shaped technology but hey, I may learn to love the Kindle! Perhaps the amount of paper books will shrink (but I doubt it!) I suspect life will just be filled with more books but oh well!
My usual birthday party was great fun and I think they had a lovely time too, so that's always good!
While the party was happening though, one of my friends asked me how I was apart from work and I kind of had a long pause. I have been noticing lately that when people say "How are you?" my answer tends to be "Work has been okay." or "Work was annoying." or "Work was good." Which is fine, that's okay but it's made me realise that I'm feeling quite a bit stuck in a rut. I seem to mostly be doing the same things and that's not necessarily bad but ... it's leaving me feeling a bit hollow lately and I've been fretting about it (this is one of the reasons I've been totally absent again, I keep convincing myself that I have nothing to say which is stupid)
(also, it's having the negative effect that when I'm doing something that's not part of my rut, I'm worrying about it more than I need to because "OMG I don't do this WHAT IF IT'S HORRIBLE?" I mean, I do that anyway, I'm that type but I think it's been worse lately)
I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do about it yet. I will be doing some new stuff soon (I always take some Open University classes so they'll hopefully be a bit inspiring) Maybe I need a new hobby? I wouldn't mind trying to learn something new, something creative, although I'm not quite sure what (I worry about buying something expensive and then totally ignoring it forever ...) I don't know. I'll think of something though.
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So, I'm 31. I had a good birthday, I have finally got a Kindle (well, I will when it arrives) It may simply end up as pretty shaped technology but hey, I may learn to love the Kindle! Perhaps the amount of paper books will shrink (but I doubt it!) I suspect life will just be filled with more books but oh well!
My usual birthday party was great fun and I think they had a lovely time too, so that's always good!
While the party was happening though, one of my friends asked me how I was apart from work and I kind of had a long pause. I have been noticing lately that when people say "How are you?" my answer tends to be "Work has been okay." or "Work was annoying." or "Work was good." Which is fine, that's okay but it's made me realise that I'm feeling quite a bit stuck in a rut. I seem to mostly be doing the same things and that's not necessarily bad but ... it's leaving me feeling a bit hollow lately and I've been fretting about it (this is one of the reasons I've been totally absent again, I keep convincing myself that I have nothing to say which is stupid)
(also, it's having the negative effect that when I'm doing something that's not part of my rut, I'm worrying about it more than I need to because "OMG I don't do this WHAT IF IT'S HORRIBLE?" I mean, I do that anyway, I'm that type but I think it's been worse lately)
I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do about it yet. I will be doing some new stuff soon (I always take some Open University classes so they'll hopefully be a bit inspiring) Maybe I need a new hobby? I wouldn't mind trying to learn something new, something creative, although I'm not quite sure what (I worry about buying something expensive and then totally ignoring it forever ...) I don't know. I'll think of something though.
This entry was originally posted at http://still-lycoris.dreamwidth.org/169677.html. If you want, you can comment there instead.