this is gonna be a long one.
ok so i honestly dont know if i want school to end. this morning i almost cried after todd and i took our pictures. CiCi is moving. and im going to south county.
i dont want to leave hayfield. the best friends i have ever had arent going to south county. im so afraid im going to lose touch with them. yea ok in the year books everyone says "we.re gonna keep in touch! this summer lets hang out!" and crap but think about it. look back in your yearbooks from the past at ho said that and see if you still talk to them...and i dont want that to happen to us. i want to stay close with todd. i want to stay close with jay. i want to stay friends witch wesley and with jade. i know my luck, and jade is gonna go to some awesome college and i will probably never see her again after her senior year. she will be too busy at harvard getting smart. or she will go on to juliard with her amazing musical talents. wesley says if i get drum major he will go to all the games. i love him for that. as stupid as that is...he probably will come to a few but i mean come on, senior year is no easy time. todd...wow my love todd..i had the best times with him. he means so much to me. hes always there for me no matter what..and we cant forget kathleen and how she made marching band more bearable..thats just a few btw, dont get hurt if you werent mentioned.
south county tho. i have so much ahead of me there. hopefully i will be the drum major there. hopefully but probably not. its a new place where i can start over. i will be able to decide how everything is for me. i'll be able to become EVEN BETTER friends with lizzie. hopefully i.ll make a few new friends.
joel. oh lord joel. people have asked me whats going on between us and i never know what to say. i know what i want to say, but i cant very well lie, can i? im glad hes there to talk to tho. i dont know what id do without him >.<
oh well. summer is coming. warped tour? hopefully..and hopefully with joel.
--<3 always, jessie
[every drawing that i drew was never ever as cute as you]