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Maybe we'll talk
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
--- its amazing how much one thing can stay at the back of your mind, no matter how hard you try to push it away. there's always at least one thought, one little thing that made a hole in your heart... and despite your best efforts to patch it up and front like everything's ok, you can't keep up the act for long. but hey, some people are better actors than others. i hate that this one thing has gotten to me. this is what happens when i let my guard down. dont get attached. dont get attached. dont get attached. i guess i just liked having a happy thought that made me smile for no reason at all. getting phone calls & texts were a nice surprise. silly me, i thought that things would be different this time. whenever i start to think that things might just work out... they dont. and its so abrupt and sudden, and i'm left sitting there wondering, 'what the hell just happened?!' thats just how it is though. cuz if you think about, people might not give things another chance if they knew it was just going to fall apart. its kinda like snowboarding. you're bound to fall. its a lot of fun. it hard to get back up, and you become slightly discouraged after falling so much. after a few runs, you realize it was so much fun, and the effort you put into it was worth it after all.
but i just dont know anymore. i think i wait for longer than i should. i make excuses. i rationalize. i close my eyes and try to hold onto how things used to be.
maybe this run is over. time to move on. & l e t g o .
wow, this sounded kinda dramatic. but its really not a big deal. things just dont work out when i want them to. plain&simple.
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
--- its amazing how much one thing can stay at the back of your mind, no matter how hard you try to push it away. there's always at least one thought, one little thing that made a hole in your heart... and despite your best efforts to patch it up and front like everything's ok, you can't keep up the act for long. but hey, some people are better actors than others. i hate that this one thing has gotten to me. this is what happens when i let my guard down. dont get attached. dont get attached. dont get attached. i guess i just liked having a happy thought that made me smile for no reason at all. getting phone calls & texts were a nice surprise. silly me, i thought that things would be different this time. whenever i start to think that things might just work out... they dont. and its so abrupt and sudden, and i'm left sitting there wondering, 'what the hell just happened?!' thats just how it is though. cuz if you think about, people might not give things another chance if they knew it was just going to fall apart. its kinda like snowboarding. you're bound to fall. its a lot of fun. it hard to get back up, and you become slightly discouraged after falling so much. after a few runs, you realize it was so much fun, and the effort you put into it was worth it after all.
but i just dont know anymore. i think i wait for longer than i should. i make excuses. i rationalize. i close my eyes and try to hold onto how things used to be.
maybe this run is over. time to move on. & l e t g o .
wow, this sounded kinda dramatic. but its really not a big deal. things just dont work out when i want them to. plain&simple.