Feb 27, 2010 14:00
My daughter messaged me today and announced that the wedding was called off. That she was moving out. She asked if she could come back here for two weeks. Chris and I have taken her in a total of 3 times up to this point, and pretty much made it clear that even though we support her that she could not use us as a revolving door and move in again. I told her to use her day off to look and figure it all out. She came over later to say that she had found a small place to stay. It is a living room, bedroom & bathroom in the basement of her prior babysitter.
When does it ever get any easier to untie the apron strings. You know I want to hold on and help as much as I can, but at the same time I have had a heart attack, and deal with another chronic health issue, so I will not always be around. I need her to take accountability for herself and move forward, she is not going to do that if we keep sheltering her. Needless to say while she was here I kept my composure, but when she left I was feeling like such a horrible father that all I could do was cry.
Needless to say I am presently cleaning up the house in preparation to leave for Las Vegas for our birthdays. The dishes are about done, the laundry is in progress, the budget and bills are caught up, and then all I need to do is pack my bag.
I went to the doctor yesterday and yes I asked to be placed back on an antidepressant. At the present time I am thinking that I am glad I did so. Problem is those meds usually need 2 weeks to build up in your system. Thankfully he listened to me a little and he agreed I needed something, he said he would of been worried if I told him I didn't.
For what it matters, just keep me in your thoughts, and say a prayer if you all would.
Thanks.