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house resident interview had some pretty difficult questions
particularly about priorities, so it made me start thinking about it
it’s hard when you want one thing to be your priority, but other things make specific demands on your time
in the interview, I said my priorities were 1) my faith 2) theatre 3) school....
but when it comes down to scheduling, unfortunately theatre and school take over
which sucks
I really do want my faith to be number one in my life.
it’s going to be very good when I can actually go to theatre bible study again because all I’ve been doing recently is theatre and school, and kinda taking for granted my living in the house
and my faith has been put on the back burner
I’m glad I’m doing housing partnerships this weekend because I need to make service a more integral part of my life too
and I cried for the first time in a long time today -- I got frustrated with my computer science lab
but I was just glad that I could cry
I still strongly believe in 'you bleed just to know you're alive...'
sometimes I thrive more on pain
and it's because I really hate when I numbly go through life
so when I cry, it feels really good
even though the reason i'm crying in the first place is because something sucks
i know, i'm insane.
but full of real emotion, and that's why it's okay.
particularly about priorities, so it made me start thinking about it
it’s hard when you want one thing to be your priority, but other things make specific demands on your time
in the interview, I said my priorities were 1) my faith 2) theatre 3) school....
but when it comes down to scheduling, unfortunately theatre and school take over
which sucks
I really do want my faith to be number one in my life.
it’s going to be very good when I can actually go to theatre bible study again because all I’ve been doing recently is theatre and school, and kinda taking for granted my living in the house
and my faith has been put on the back burner
I’m glad I’m doing housing partnerships this weekend because I need to make service a more integral part of my life too
and I cried for the first time in a long time today -- I got frustrated with my computer science lab
but I was just glad that I could cry
I still strongly believe in 'you bleed just to know you're alive...'
sometimes I thrive more on pain
and it's because I really hate when I numbly go through life
so when I cry, it feels really good
even though the reason i'm crying in the first place is because something sucks
i know, i'm insane.
but full of real emotion, and that's why it's okay.