fuck baseline - let me stay nuts
shrinky dink wants me to consider doing intensive outpatient program (DBT) for my borderline issues and semi-suicidal ideation bullshit. thing is, i have been semi depersonalized/derealized lately and i fucken LOVE that! i don't want to be therapied out of that!!! it keeps me going... it brings life back to life.... magick even.... if i get rid of that and become baseline again, i fear my ideation will become actual planning... i can't be bored again.... baseline is evil... it truly is the worst (besides numb - flat affect)