i feel so much better!
so these past couple days have been a lot better for me! thank god! i told flip how i was feeling about him being like different towards me, and how i feel like he wants to break up with me.
well turns out that wasnt it at all. we talked about it, and he said sometimes he doesnt think he can be this full time boyfriend, and some other stuff. i just told him how i think i really do give him enough space, i mean i hardly see him. he said it wasnt that. i do give him space. so of course i start crying and walk away. but he pulled me aside and told me he loves me with all his heart, and he never planned on breaking up with me. he said he is trying to be a better boyfriend, and he doesnt want me to feel neglected. he said he has never had a girlfriend like me, and he isnt about to ruin a good thing! which make me really feel a lot better.
i know he is like really focused on making money, and music and everything else. i respect him so much for that, but its just hard when you want to be with someone, and their life is so busy! so now he got another job at night, so thats just more time i wont see him! i hate it! but it will be better once we move in together i think. it will be easier to see each other! so i have decided to apply at kroger! for the night shift that is! i need to keep busy, and i really need the MONEY!! i dont care where i am working! i dont plan on going back to school right now so i need to work! plus i want to go to cosmotology school, and that is going to be a shit load of money! and of course i will be paying for it myself!
my priority list:
get a car
move out(with flip--of course)
go to cos school
my three main things i want right now!!
well tomorrow, i am getting new glasses or contacts i hope! i havn't had new glasses in like forever! its time! so my next check i know i shouldn't but i really want to go get my hair done! we will see!
tomorrow night my awesome boyfriend is taking me, heather and britt out for dinner! cause he loves us girls! it's so sweet of him.
well im off to watch some tv! peace out!
well turns out that wasnt it at all. we talked about it, and he said sometimes he doesnt think he can be this full time boyfriend, and some other stuff. i just told him how i think i really do give him enough space, i mean i hardly see him. he said it wasnt that. i do give him space. so of course i start crying and walk away. but he pulled me aside and told me he loves me with all his heart, and he never planned on breaking up with me. he said he is trying to be a better boyfriend, and he doesnt want me to feel neglected. he said he has never had a girlfriend like me, and he isnt about to ruin a good thing! which make me really feel a lot better.
i know he is like really focused on making money, and music and everything else. i respect him so much for that, but its just hard when you want to be with someone, and their life is so busy! so now he got another job at night, so thats just more time i wont see him! i hate it! but it will be better once we move in together i think. it will be easier to see each other! so i have decided to apply at kroger! for the night shift that is! i need to keep busy, and i really need the MONEY!! i dont care where i am working! i dont plan on going back to school right now so i need to work! plus i want to go to cosmotology school, and that is going to be a shit load of money! and of course i will be paying for it myself!
my priority list:
get a car
move out(with flip--of course)
go to cos school
my three main things i want right now!!
well tomorrow, i am getting new glasses or contacts i hope! i havn't had new glasses in like forever! its time! so my next check i know i shouldn't but i really want to go get my hair done! we will see!
tomorrow night my awesome boyfriend is taking me, heather and britt out for dinner! cause he loves us girls! it's so sweet of him.
well im off to watch some tv! peace out!