love doesn't hurt, so i know i'm not falling in love, i'm just falling to pieces
so i am really upset right now just thinking about stuff.
here is my problem:
ok for once in my life i am so IN LOVE! but i feel like i have two different sides of me and i dont like it! i am either really happy, or really sad.
dont get me wrong i love flip with all my heart, but sometimes he just really makes me upset with things he says and does! and for this past week, i feel like we are like drifting apart. i havn't physically hung out with him or hugged or kissed him for like a week and i hate it! everytime i talk to him, its like a 5 minute coversation. and its always me calling him! i know he may be busy right now, but i am his girlfriend and that should count for something! i have become something i said i wouldn't. one of those girls who wants to be with her boyfriend all the time. so i am trying to break that cycle and get out more with my friends. but then there is another problem, because half the time i dont even want to do what they are doing, and i get bored in like two seconds! it's not that i dont like to drink or have fun, but i dont like doing it ALL THE TIME! it gets old to me sitting around in someones house, doing nothing. i am the type of person, who likes to go out and do fun things. things that dont always involve drinking.
so here is another problem of mine:
ok i dont mind sitting aournd all day and wathching tv or just hanging out, but when this is an every day thing i get tired of it! when me and flip hang out, we never do anything! we finally just went out to dinner after like going out for almost 5 months! and that was a great night. he was so sweet and i loved it. but i wish we could do things like that more often. not ALL THE TIME, but just more often.
i love him so much that i dont know what i would do without him, so thats why i never bring these issues up. i dont want him to freak out and break up with me over it. but then again it sucks having to keep everything to myself and fake a smile. i just want things to get better and everything to be like it was! ah!
here is my problem:
ok for once in my life i am so IN LOVE! but i feel like i have two different sides of me and i dont like it! i am either really happy, or really sad.
dont get me wrong i love flip with all my heart, but sometimes he just really makes me upset with things he says and does! and for this past week, i feel like we are like drifting apart. i havn't physically hung out with him or hugged or kissed him for like a week and i hate it! everytime i talk to him, its like a 5 minute coversation. and its always me calling him! i know he may be busy right now, but i am his girlfriend and that should count for something! i have become something i said i wouldn't. one of those girls who wants to be with her boyfriend all the time. so i am trying to break that cycle and get out more with my friends. but then there is another problem, because half the time i dont even want to do what they are doing, and i get bored in like two seconds! it's not that i dont like to drink or have fun, but i dont like doing it ALL THE TIME! it gets old to me sitting around in someones house, doing nothing. i am the type of person, who likes to go out and do fun things. things that dont always involve drinking.
so here is another problem of mine:
ok i dont mind sitting aournd all day and wathching tv or just hanging out, but when this is an every day thing i get tired of it! when me and flip hang out, we never do anything! we finally just went out to dinner after like going out for almost 5 months! and that was a great night. he was so sweet and i loved it. but i wish we could do things like that more often. not ALL THE TIME, but just more often.
i love him so much that i dont know what i would do without him, so thats why i never bring these issues up. i dont want him to freak out and break up with me over it. but then again it sucks having to keep everything to myself and fake a smile. i just want things to get better and everything to be like it was! ah!