1. I just got done talking to my mom last night about the fact that ur the best friend ive ever had. We've been through a lot together-whether it be my fault or yours..bad things have happened and look where we are now. i would say we have a pretty god damn good friendship, dont you? In my discussion with my mom last night I was telling her how it was so important that i stood up for myself when i was hurt by you and it was hard to get my trust back with you-but you did it..we did it. For the first time in my life i feel like im not the only one working on a relationship. I feel like I could go forever without talking to you because I know that if ever anything happens where you're hurt or im hurt-i would walk around the world to get to you and i KNOW you would do the same. I know that I told you that in my relationship with jen-i felt like i was the only one trying to keep it together and those are pretty much the only kind of relationships ive been in--shallow and unrealistic. and whether you like to believe it or not- I would die if you werent in my life anymore..when im sad-ur the one i wanna talk to! when im happy-youre the one i wanna celebrate with! and when im scared- you're the one who i want to tell me it'll be okay. and you have!
there isnt really a 2 i dont think-i think i just felt like numbering it haha..but neway- so you know how jen was always jealous of you being my best friend-well she was right..there was nothing she could ever do to replace you. obviously-since whenever something happened between me and her-i would go to you whether she liked it or not.
OH! I FOUND A 2!!!! okay 2. I know that you didnt write this post just to get a bunch of random ppl telling you that they 'love you'. because to tell u the truth-whenever i made a post about something like this-thats not what i wanted..i wanted CHANGE! i wanted somebody to try to make me feel like i was worth something instead of just saying something on here which is SO easy to do compared to devoting your life to show someone that you really, truly, honestly, generally CARE about that person every single day. and obviously its hard for me to do that when im not around you but i still call you and you are the only other person i regularly text about something thats on my mind besides my sister(which..sorry-you understand :-) but i wanted you to hear me say that you are worth more than everything i have in possession in my life and if you ever got pregnant-i would give up having a single room in an apartment so you could come stay with me if..HAHA WHEN! ur parents kick you out :-D
3. do u realize that you were valedictorian? i know that probably doesnt mean much to you because it was sort of a given. but do u know that the reason it was a given was because you are the smartest, most hardworking person in our class!?!? its a cumulative thing so since your freshman year you have worked your ASS off to get there! you took apus, ap lit, ap psych, AP PHYSICS, ap calc (for like..a day and a half lol) and numerous other challenging classes and you succeeded in every single one of them! I realize i cant just say that to make it all better but this is how i see it so im telling you the truth. you are certainly NOT inadequate--look at me for gods sake-i had to go back up and check the spelling of inadequate..whatever-neway
1. I just got done talking to my mom last night about the fact that ur the best friend ive ever had. We've been through a lot together-whether it be my fault or yours..bad things have happened and look where we are now. i would say we have a pretty god damn good friendship, dont you? In my discussion with my mom last night I was telling her how it was so important that i stood up for myself when i was hurt by you and it was hard to get my trust back with you-but you did it..we did it. For the first time in my life i feel like im not the only one working on a relationship. I feel like I could go forever without talking to you because I know that if ever anything happens where you're hurt or im hurt-i would walk around the world to get to you and i KNOW you would do the same. I know that I told you that in my relationship with jen-i felt like i was the only one trying to keep it together and those are pretty much the only kind of relationships ive been in--shallow and unrealistic. and whether you like to believe it or not- I would die if you werent in my life anymore..when im sad-ur the one i wanna talk to! when im happy-youre the one i wanna celebrate with! and when im scared- you're the one who i want to tell me it'll be okay. and you have!
there isnt really a 2 i dont think-i think i just felt like numbering it haha..but neway- so you know how jen was always jealous of you being my best friend-well she was right..there was nothing she could ever do to replace you. obviously-since whenever something happened between me and her-i would go to you whether she liked it or not.
OH! I FOUND A 2!!!!
okay 2. I know that you didnt write this post just to get a bunch of random ppl telling you that they 'love you'. because to tell u the truth-whenever i made a post about something like this-thats not what i wanted..i wanted CHANGE! i wanted somebody to try to make me feel like i was worth something instead of just saying something on here which is SO easy to do compared to devoting your life to show someone that you really, truly, honestly, generally CARE about that person every single day. and obviously its hard for me to do that when im not around you but i still call you and you are the only other person i regularly text about something thats on my mind besides my sister(which..sorry-you understand :-) but i wanted you to hear me say that you are worth more than everything i have in possession in my life and if you ever got pregnant-i would give up having a single room in an apartment so you could come stay with me if..HAHA WHEN! ur parents kick you out :-D
3. do u realize that you were valedictorian? i know that probably doesnt mean much to you because it was sort of a given. but do u know that the reason it was a given was because you are the smartest, most hardworking person in our class!?!? its a cumulative thing so since your freshman year you have worked your ASS off to get there! you took apus, ap lit, ap psych, AP PHYSICS, ap calc (for like..a day and a half lol) and numerous other challenging classes and you succeeded in every single one of them! I realize i cant just say that to make it all better but this is how i see it so im telling you the truth. you are certainly NOT inadequate--look at me for gods sake-i had to go back up and check the spelling of inadequate..whatever-neway
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