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I feel so inadequate right now. I don't feel like the person who I wanted to become. I feel like I'm being hit with a ton of bricks.
I did so much in high school. I worked so hard, only to be second best, or not even, at everything. Acting, singing, tennis, every club I was in, everything I was passionate about. I was never good enough to succeed with the things I loved to do.
I feel worthless. Andy makes me feel important, like something would be missing from his life if I wasn't there. I think every other friend I have would be just fine without me. Maybe even better off?
I don't know what people think of me. Friends who have thrown me aside never really had a good reason, so it must have been simply because of the person I am. I keep wondering what's so wrong with me. I try to be a good friend, to be there when anyone needs someone. But no one needs me. It's only yet another way I fall short.
It's so hard to live when you feel like no one understands you. When you feel like all your efforts get unnoticed or mistaken or lost. When it is so easy for other people to leave you in the dust.
I did so much in high school. I worked so hard, only to be second best, or not even, at everything. Acting, singing, tennis, every club I was in, everything I was passionate about. I was never good enough to succeed with the things I loved to do.
I feel worthless. Andy makes me feel important, like something would be missing from his life if I wasn't there. I think every other friend I have would be just fine without me. Maybe even better off?
I don't know what people think of me. Friends who have thrown me aside never really had a good reason, so it must have been simply because of the person I am. I keep wondering what's so wrong with me. I try to be a good friend, to be there when anyone needs someone. But no one needs me. It's only yet another way I fall short.
It's so hard to live when you feel like no one understands you. When you feel like all your efforts get unnoticed or mistaken or lost. When it is so easy for other people to leave you in the dust.