when it rains, it pours.

[luv2live0227]

it's all such a blur now.. i can't recall ever being fully comitted the whole quarter. I was distrait and my mind was simply not in my work. my life was a mess and all over the place, and my mind completely mirrored everything that was going on in my life. i can't comprehend it; how did i ever allow myself to mess up that bad? i usually take great pride in everything i turn in.. yet when i recieved my report of it all, i was far from being able to take pride in that. it was almost as if i had no control over it all.. but then again i know that's a bunch of bull. regardless of the major turns my life has taken the past few months, i am in control of my life, not circumstance. and it was in my control to do better. so now i fall under the "mediocre" category? if i don't have my intelligence, then what do i have? i've settled for "averege" in myself in many other areas, and this is one of them that i refuse to. i owe it to myself to prove that i can.

& i'm not overreacting..