happy thanksgiving.
it's thanksgiving.. and i know that i should be giving thanks right now for all of the good things in my life.. but today, the bad has just been overpowering the good, and making it difficult for me to focus. and i feel selfish, because this is the day that i'm supposed to be giving thanks to Him for all he has done for me and in my life, but instead i'm being preoccupied with all of today's mishappenings. but i know thats just the devil trying to bring me down.. and i need to stand victorious in this. so i'm going to try and turn this around here. pre-warning, i may ramble and make no sense..
first, heres the situation. my grades are doing very badly. and i'm embaressed and it really bothers me.. my brother decided that he would make fun of me today. i did not appreciate it. it ended in spilt mashed potatoes, and kicking on the floor. immature sounding? oh, it was. on both of our parts. but my mom had a talk with me about my grades.. and we started getting into the situation with my dad and how it is reflecting my grades.. bad decision. she did not deal with it well. end of the conversation, i am a grown woman and i can make my own decisions she says. she tells me that i can talk to him all i want, but that he can may for all my bills too. i'm considering calling him now.. but i dont want her to hate me for it... and my whole family happened to witness this conversation and get involved.. and i felt like it was seven against one. and i felt like i was doing the right thing.. but when i'm so out numbered, how can i be doing the right thing and all of them wrong? it didn't make any sense.. but i couldnt see things their way. and i can't stop the crying.
but i'm thankful for God's greater understanding.. may he know what i certainly don't about this situation, and i am thankful that i don't have to worry, because his ways are higher than my ways.
i am thankful for God's comfort.. in all of this mess, he is here to hold me and console me. the father that i'm missing out on right now. the father that's never left my side.
i am thankful for God's goodness.. he has placed such amazing friends in my life that will be here for me through it all, to remind me of things that i constantly need reminding of, and to help straighten me out when i'm out of whack. and for being exactly what i need here on earth to help me through it all.
From every tear that had to fall from my eyes
From every day I wondered how Id get through the night
From every change life has thrown me
Im thankful for every break in my heart
Im grateful for every scar
first, heres the situation. my grades are doing very badly. and i'm embaressed and it really bothers me.. my brother decided that he would make fun of me today. i did not appreciate it. it ended in spilt mashed potatoes, and kicking on the floor. immature sounding? oh, it was. on both of our parts. but my mom had a talk with me about my grades.. and we started getting into the situation with my dad and how it is reflecting my grades.. bad decision. she did not deal with it well. end of the conversation, i am a grown woman and i can make my own decisions she says. she tells me that i can talk to him all i want, but that he can may for all my bills too. i'm considering calling him now.. but i dont want her to hate me for it... and my whole family happened to witness this conversation and get involved.. and i felt like it was seven against one. and i felt like i was doing the right thing.. but when i'm so out numbered, how can i be doing the right thing and all of them wrong? it didn't make any sense.. but i couldnt see things their way. and i can't stop the crying.
but i'm thankful for God's greater understanding.. may he know what i certainly don't about this situation, and i am thankful that i don't have to worry, because his ways are higher than my ways.
i am thankful for God's comfort.. in all of this mess, he is here to hold me and console me. the father that i'm missing out on right now. the father that's never left my side.
i am thankful for God's goodness.. he has placed such amazing friends in my life that will be here for me through it all, to remind me of things that i constantly need reminding of, and to help straighten me out when i'm out of whack. and for being exactly what i need here on earth to help me through it all.
From every tear that had to fall from my eyes
From every day I wondered how Id get through the night
From every change life has thrown me
Im thankful for every break in my heart
Im grateful for every scar