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I am a selfish, unmotivated, arrogant person. I have given myself chances to correct these things. But i never follow through.motivation. I cant even motivate myself to get to the Air force in a decent time. I fucked school up and i just partied and hung out with friends.arrogance. I have consistently lied to my parents about my grades in school and havent even bothered to fix them and then take their car and spend their money to fuel my fun. selfishness. I have ruined my life and i dont think i can fix it. I dont have my parents trut anymore and im setting a horrible example for my brother. I dont know what to do. I feel like shit and just typing these truths make me want to sob. I hate writing this entry because it just shows how selfish I am. OH LUKAS IS SAD BAW BAW BAW. I dont care if you dont comment. Im just an egotistical basterd that wants that reinforcement so i can forget about. Its a pointless cause if you think you can try and help me because i will always have those same negative thoughts in my head and never get better from it. I a lost cause.