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alright here goes....
I have been blaming my unhappiness on everything except myself. i ve blamed it on my mom, my living sit, everything....and when i sat and thought about it, i dont know why im unhappy. But its nothing except something within me. I packed my shit and left nashville, tn and drove all the way up here thinking i would be happier, and im not. I came face to face with more problems. its like i know whats right, but i never reach for it...i know what will make me happy, but i cant ever go the distance...im not making nay sense.
My mom called..she wants me home, but i cant leave without knowing what ( he ) wants. Im crazy , right? I have a hard time putting myself first right now, because all i want to do is help him. When i look in his eyes, i see pain and confusion. Whether im right or wrong, i get this warm feeling in my stomach whenever i think of him, i just want to ...i dont know. i think im crazy.
My car payment is due, i need to get in school, my step mom is a crazy drunk, my mom misses me, i feel torn between two worlds and dont know which one to pick.i Left TN because i felt like i was always under my mother and i could never do anything for myself, plus i never got to grow up with a dad and wanted to spend time with me. i wasnt happy in TN, i was sick of everything...so i came here..new start, new poeple, new everything. But i cant find a job, i cant do anythign. im so confused. im not one to say this... but i need gods help. i need him to help me more than ive ever needed him, and im praying he heres me man =..
i like that boy, and need help, cause im confused...
I have been blaming my unhappiness on everything except myself. i ve blamed it on my mom, my living sit, everything....and when i sat and thought about it, i dont know why im unhappy. But its nothing except something within me. I packed my shit and left nashville, tn and drove all the way up here thinking i would be happier, and im not. I came face to face with more problems. its like i know whats right, but i never reach for it...i know what will make me happy, but i cant ever go the distance...im not making nay sense.
My mom called..she wants me home, but i cant leave without knowing what ( he ) wants. Im crazy , right? I have a hard time putting myself first right now, because all i want to do is help him. When i look in his eyes, i see pain and confusion. Whether im right or wrong, i get this warm feeling in my stomach whenever i think of him, i just want to ...i dont know. i think im crazy.
My car payment is due, i need to get in school, my step mom is a crazy drunk, my mom misses me, i feel torn between two worlds and dont know which one to pick.i Left TN because i felt like i was always under my mother and i could never do anything for myself, plus i never got to grow up with a dad and wanted to spend time with me. i wasnt happy in TN, i was sick of everything...so i came here..new start, new poeple, new everything. But i cant find a job, i cant do anythign. im so confused. im not one to say this... but i need gods help. i need him to help me more than ive ever needed him, and im praying he heres me man =..
i like that boy, and need help, cause im confused...