The bitch...
Ohio
-It all falls down.
Yeah so, ever since i got up here its been a issue for me to go out because of my stepmom. I am grown, im almost 19 ( in kess than a month) ! and this lady wants me to be home early, and i cant do it. So she basically stated i had no respect and then started going crazy, and "yall" i mean CRAZY! told me she hated me ... called my dad every name in the book, told me i was a mommys girl, and while i was getting ready to go out she called me a slut told me i was just like my mother. Called my dad a trader. She was trying to leave, throwing things. To make a long story short i had to leave and stay with my friend Jenifer. I was going to go home, and you would think anyone in there right mind would, but i came up here for a reason..... and i will finish it. Regardless of this hatin ass bitch who is so jealous of my mom and me that i cant see straight. Its amusing to me, but my poor Dad. I cant understand why hes still with this crazy lady. But im not leaving him =( Well, thats my excuse for not leaving. But i dont want to. I have to finish what im here for, regardless.
-Job,Friends,Life.
Well im still looking for a job. Its wayyyy harder to get a job up here. Its diffrent.
They want you to take a physical, and i never had to do that before, and its weird to me i guess.
But im still waiting on someone to call me, so hopefully by next week i will have a job.
Ive met several boys, there not hard to meet here, but they all seem to have girlfriends in the end.
three boys have fucked me over so far and there girlfriends have ended up calling me asking me about them. It pisses me off in away because i just want to be friends with these guys, and they could have just been honest, i wouldnt have cared. So yeah ohio boys, play games....way to much.
Im still working out. i just started a pilates class, so hopefully that will bnuild some strength, and my pills are eating my fat up! So yeah... life is nice, in my mind.
Jamall-Im hurt.
Well im just now going to open up about this, because i wasnt strong enough to do it before.
He cheated on me. BEFORE i left. About 2 months ago now. i dont want to go in the Long story but me and him are over. But i still love him, im still in love with him. I dont know if i will ever be able to get over him. I dont know how. I didnt cry this time, except maybe a few tears, but i didnt break down. I think he made my heart just freeze up, so harden. Because it was like i was numb and couldnt feel anything,. the only feelings i could say was " i hate you, and i will kill you". i said that to him and the girl. And he of course put on his little sad im sorry , act. He lied to me at first. Fucking sucker. GOD I HATE HIM! I swear, if i dont do anything else when i go back to nashville, i will hurt him. Maybe not physically, but i will hurt him. Hurt him sooooo bad. ok im sorry. But i still love him and he is still my strength. My strength for getting me through each day, because im going to make him wish, he never even glanced at another girl.
-faith will move mountains.
xoxo,
Rachel
-It all falls down.
Yeah so, ever since i got up here its been a issue for me to go out because of my stepmom. I am grown, im almost 19 ( in kess than a month) ! and this lady wants me to be home early, and i cant do it. So she basically stated i had no respect and then started going crazy, and "yall" i mean CRAZY! told me she hated me ... called my dad every name in the book, told me i was a mommys girl, and while i was getting ready to go out she called me a slut told me i was just like my mother. Called my dad a trader. She was trying to leave, throwing things. To make a long story short i had to leave and stay with my friend Jenifer. I was going to go home, and you would think anyone in there right mind would, but i came up here for a reason..... and i will finish it. Regardless of this hatin ass bitch who is so jealous of my mom and me that i cant see straight. Its amusing to me, but my poor Dad. I cant understand why hes still with this crazy lady. But im not leaving him =( Well, thats my excuse for not leaving. But i dont want to. I have to finish what im here for, regardless.
-Job,Friends,Life.
Well im still looking for a job. Its wayyyy harder to get a job up here. Its diffrent.
They want you to take a physical, and i never had to do that before, and its weird to me i guess.
But im still waiting on someone to call me, so hopefully by next week i will have a job.
Ive met several boys, there not hard to meet here, but they all seem to have girlfriends in the end.
three boys have fucked me over so far and there girlfriends have ended up calling me asking me about them. It pisses me off in away because i just want to be friends with these guys, and they could have just been honest, i wouldnt have cared. So yeah ohio boys, play games....way to much.
Im still working out. i just started a pilates class, so hopefully that will bnuild some strength, and my pills are eating my fat up! So yeah... life is nice, in my mind.
Jamall-Im hurt.
Well im just now going to open up about this, because i wasnt strong enough to do it before.
He cheated on me. BEFORE i left. About 2 months ago now. i dont want to go in the Long story but me and him are over. But i still love him, im still in love with him. I dont know if i will ever be able to get over him. I dont know how. I didnt cry this time, except maybe a few tears, but i didnt break down. I think he made my heart just freeze up, so harden. Because it was like i was numb and couldnt feel anything,. the only feelings i could say was " i hate you, and i will kill you". i said that to him and the girl. And he of course put on his little sad im sorry , act. He lied to me at first. Fucking sucker. GOD I HATE HIM! I swear, if i dont do anything else when i go back to nashville, i will hurt him. Maybe not physically, but i will hurt him. Hurt him sooooo bad. ok im sorry. But i still love him and he is still my strength. My strength for getting me through each day, because im going to make him wish, he never even glanced at another girl.
-faith will move mountains.
xoxo,
Rachel