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i am so sore from my kundalini yoga class yesterday
i got to the studio and James was sitting there by himself, looking really innocent and dejected.
i know how much it meant to him to have this class and after printing all those flyers for him and the time he spent distributing them, i was kinda disappointed that he didn't have a better turn out but we made the best of it
he was actually a great instructor. kundalini is different from any other yoga i have taken, it was really energizing and i could feel the layers of awareness clearing throughout the different parts of the class
afterwards i felt more free and alive, i was dancing and spinning around the room like a child
then we went out to dinner and had some in depth conversation, most of which was about him and his life, as i was listening, it became crystal clear why we aren't together, he perceives life from this limited place that he believes is expansive and connects him to life, while i see it as separating him from life, from me, i told him this and he couldn't really accept it, he defended himself and i allowed him to be there, cause he isn't ready to hear what i had to say
minutes before i had wanted him to stay and spend more time with me in my apt but in that moment, i knew that i had to let him go.
he put his arms around me and we stood there for the longest time, just holding eachother, i asked him why we were so attracted to eachother and he said that he opened my heart, i asked why he liked being with me and he said i opened his heart when my heart was open
more later...
i got to the studio and James was sitting there by himself, looking really innocent and dejected.
i know how much it meant to him to have this class and after printing all those flyers for him and the time he spent distributing them, i was kinda disappointed that he didn't have a better turn out but we made the best of it
he was actually a great instructor. kundalini is different from any other yoga i have taken, it was really energizing and i could feel the layers of awareness clearing throughout the different parts of the class
afterwards i felt more free and alive, i was dancing and spinning around the room like a child
then we went out to dinner and had some in depth conversation, most of which was about him and his life, as i was listening, it became crystal clear why we aren't together, he perceives life from this limited place that he believes is expansive and connects him to life, while i see it as separating him from life, from me, i told him this and he couldn't really accept it, he defended himself and i allowed him to be there, cause he isn't ready to hear what i had to say
minutes before i had wanted him to stay and spend more time with me in my apt but in that moment, i knew that i had to let him go.
he put his arms around me and we stood there for the longest time, just holding eachother, i asked him why we were so attracted to eachother and he said that he opened my heart, i asked why he liked being with me and he said i opened his heart when my heart was open
more later...