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Its been almost a year and it hurts as though it was just yesterday. Of course one year would have to be on mother's day of all fucking occasions. Things haven't really gotten much better. Emotionally I still have all those regrets that people always tell you that you will feel after that person is gone. I dont know what makes me more mad, the fact that it happens and i still feel them almost everyday or the fact that the people who have always told you that were right. AHhhhhh
I just wish I knew what the hell is going on. I miss when I was actually happy with my life. Then when one of the few people that actually makes me happy returns I am happy and pissed off all at the same time, cause I hate to share. But it only last awhile cause then they leave and go back to their life without me. I hate this crap I want my life to be some what normal.
I have so many friends taht are happy and have great relationships and are getting married and I almost had that. So many times i wish I could get it back, not just for me, but for Ashlei.
When does life go back to being what you almost had and never realized it?
I just wish I knew what the hell is going on. I miss when I was actually happy with my life. Then when one of the few people that actually makes me happy returns I am happy and pissed off all at the same time, cause I hate to share. But it only last awhile cause then they leave and go back to their life without me. I hate this crap I want my life to be some what normal.
I have so many friends taht are happy and have great relationships and are getting married and I almost had that. So many times i wish I could get it back, not just for me, but for Ashlei.
When does life go back to being what you almost had and never realized it?