unrequited
yeah, me and stephen broke up..
what the shit right?
but we're back together now, so i GUESS its okay
i dont know, i like him a lot,
i care for him more than anything, and its GREAT when we're alone together, but hes so unsure it makes me nervous sometimes, and it seems hes only REALLY unsure when we're not alone.. i really dont know what to make of it, we're still together, and i really am thankful, the whole time we were broken up all i would do is pray we'd have something again... my prayer was answered, but there was no guarentee it would be the same... i dont know, i guess id give anything for him to be CERTAIN he wants to be with me, i shouldnt wish, i should be greatful, which i am, i really really am, hes sooo sweet to me anyway, and i still dont understand what good i have done to deserve him, and im pretty sure he gets kinda bored with me, because i havent been an oh so great conversationalist... i kinda repeat myself more than usual and get at a loss for words, i remember one night we had this great really long conversation, and i dont know, i liked it, i wanted to have it again, but i feel like he doesnt feel as open with me as he was. I think he doesnt feel like he can talk to me about anything anymore.. maybe its because he saw me bug out a few times.. i tried so hard not to show him that side of me.. but its kinda part of who i am... i shoulder everyones burdens and then BAM im a wreck...
then when i have a disapointment i take it ten times worse because everyones problems seems to fall with me..
i dont know, i just dont want to lose him, he means a great deal to me,
and no matter how much he denies it, hes is the..
well...
the best.
what the shit right?
but we're back together now, so i GUESS its okay
i dont know, i like him a lot,
i care for him more than anything, and its GREAT when we're alone together, but hes so unsure it makes me nervous sometimes, and it seems hes only REALLY unsure when we're not alone.. i really dont know what to make of it, we're still together, and i really am thankful, the whole time we were broken up all i would do is pray we'd have something again... my prayer was answered, but there was no guarentee it would be the same... i dont know, i guess id give anything for him to be CERTAIN he wants to be with me, i shouldnt wish, i should be greatful, which i am, i really really am, hes sooo sweet to me anyway, and i still dont understand what good i have done to deserve him, and im pretty sure he gets kinda bored with me, because i havent been an oh so great conversationalist... i kinda repeat myself more than usual and get at a loss for words, i remember one night we had this great really long conversation, and i dont know, i liked it, i wanted to have it again, but i feel like he doesnt feel as open with me as he was. I think he doesnt feel like he can talk to me about anything anymore.. maybe its because he saw me bug out a few times.. i tried so hard not to show him that side of me.. but its kinda part of who i am... i shoulder everyones burdens and then BAM im a wreck...
then when i have a disapointment i take it ten times worse because everyones problems seems to fall with me..
i dont know, i just dont want to lose him, he means a great deal to me,
and no matter how much he denies it, hes is the..
well...
the best.