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So, I havent updated this due to my lack in fast internet. It is 5 days until my birthday and it doesnt feel any different. I mean, I am excited but it just doesnt seem like it is much of a big deal for me or anyone else. I havent accomplished anything and my summer draws to a close very quickly and I quickly realize what all I havent accomplished.
I havent been able to talk to that certain person, well not IRL at least, I did get to talk to them on AIM for like three minutes.
I havent been able to talk to that hurtful person, I have trie to get ahold of her, but they cant talk long(have better friends to talk to I guess) so I havent exactly talked to them for more than two minutes. It bgs me because the way they act is not to befitting of the person I know of them. We have been friends for a whil and she has just started acting the way they have, I dont know if she knows exactly what she is doing or if she knows. But it is either way hurtful to me when they do what they did. As soon as I tallk to them, I will tell everyone on here that reads this (so alex I guess) what exactly they did.
So I have been thinking about this whole situation and I gont like the smell of it one bit. I mean we have been friends for a long time and this is the first time they have ever done anything like this to me or anyone I know. So the age ld question isnt can a person change, because they apparently changed and it was for the worse. They seem to busy and popular to talk to me or anyone else and they do this. So now my question is, once a person changes, can they change back?
I got to talk to Kari last night, for like .000569 seconds. I guess she still wants to throw the party, just not at my place. I feel better because my dad was dead set against it and I didnt want to have to fight with him about it, so this works. I never really get to talk to her anymore. She never calls you back, I have found out, and I have been reduced to "Fling". My name i s not fling it is ryan, I do not answer to fling, just ryan and rybaby and ry. But ry is for jenny only and she has it patented, so HA! So having been reduced to just the last name and not ebing ble to talk to her, I guess that is it going on with her.
I want to call Brent but he is never home, I think he has a job so he can move to mexico and become a colombian drug lord. He would do good, until he grew drugs anyway. I really miss him, he is prolly one of if not my best friend andn he is a one-of-a-kind.
I need to call Chris but I lost my phone so I dont have his number, does anybody have it? I guess I need to call him, probably something about the band. So anybody with his number would be great. I have heard many rumors of somebody he wants to kick out. I have heard Kari, bryan and me so I have no clue what to think. I think me and him are pretty good buddies, he is really cool and I would like to be in a band with him. But if he wants to kick me out than he will and I will have no hard feelings.
I miss our little group of friends at school, I really do. I think that school not only being a necessary evil, helps us stay in contact. I mean it seems like yesterday that I was going to my first day of school and I was so excited. And now I am a Sophomore in high school and I have only three years of mandatory school left. I have survived the biggest challenges of school so now it is gonna begin to get easier and easier. I mean, school is kinda like a fores, you spend half the time walking in and half the time walking out. Those are the words of my dad and I never really realized how wise that really is. So I know I have three years left and that sounds like a long time, but this is hopefully going to be my ast year of having an absolute full schedule, I am going to take classes online so I might be able to graduate at semester during my senior year. That would be nice, I would be able to move to New York like I have planned and go to college up there. I would have to fly back down for graduation and ceremonies and all but I would like to move there and start college so I might be able to get through that chapter of my life.
My brother got an apartment up in Boston, it is wicked nice. I have only seen pictures he has sent me but it is really nice. It has a koi pond, and when I saw it, I wanted to take up hung fu ad yoga so I could sit out there and do kung fu and yoga and look cool doing it. I hope to go visit him before I go back to school, I really want to. But I dont know if I will be able to, because of my mom. I miss him, too, it seems like in a matter of seconds everyone is gone.
I still have to find a way to go see Jenny, I am gonna do it soon, maybe in two weeks, I dont know how I am gonna do it, I may not have a car yet. But I might take a bus down there and walk or whatever, if there is a will there is a way, and trust me lots of will here. Bryan wants to come, but I dont know if I want him to come. I mean I know he misses Jenny but him being an identity that he is. I dont know if I trust him or want to be around him on a ride down there. HE would bug the hell out of me and I know it.
I am thinking of changing my s/n to rybaby or something like that, what do you guys think. I am not afraid of that name. It has been my name for quite a while now and I guess to try and deny it is dumb and isnt gonna work. Well, it is 2 in the morning and I have to be up at 6, so i am gonna go try and carch somewhat of a nap and I will update again soon.
Jenny got me doing quizzes so here are my favorites:
You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good! Here some tips: 1. Be ready 2. no smoking 3. start slow 4. up the intensity 5. develop rhythm 6. change it up 7. pay attention to hands 8. experiment 9. respond 10. repeat
Romantic Kisser
75%
Your more of a class act than youre giving yourself credit for
56%
Yippy Ki Yay!
56%
How good do you kiss?
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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I havent been able to talk to that certain person, well not IRL at least, I did get to talk to them on AIM for like three minutes.
I havent been able to talk to that hurtful person, I have trie to get ahold of her, but they cant talk long(have better friends to talk to I guess) so I havent exactly talked to them for more than two minutes. It bgs me because the way they act is not to befitting of the person I know of them. We have been friends for a whil and she has just started acting the way they have, I dont know if she knows exactly what she is doing or if she knows. But it is either way hurtful to me when they do what they did. As soon as I tallk to them, I will tell everyone on here that reads this (so alex I guess) what exactly they did.
So I have been thinking about this whole situation and I gont like the smell of it one bit. I mean we have been friends for a long time and this is the first time they have ever done anything like this to me or anyone I know. So the age ld question isnt can a person change, because they apparently changed and it was for the worse. They seem to busy and popular to talk to me or anyone else and they do this. So now my question is, once a person changes, can they change back?
I got to talk to Kari last night, for like .000569 seconds. I guess she still wants to throw the party, just not at my place. I feel better because my dad was dead set against it and I didnt want to have to fight with him about it, so this works. I never really get to talk to her anymore. She never calls you back, I have found out, and I have been reduced to "Fling". My name i s not fling it is ryan, I do not answer to fling, just ryan and rybaby and ry. But ry is for jenny only and she has it patented, so HA! So having been reduced to just the last name and not ebing ble to talk to her, I guess that is it going on with her.
I want to call Brent but he is never home, I think he has a job so he can move to mexico and become a colombian drug lord. He would do good, until he grew drugs anyway. I really miss him, he is prolly one of if not my best friend andn he is a one-of-a-kind.
I need to call Chris but I lost my phone so I dont have his number, does anybody have it? I guess I need to call him, probably something about the band. So anybody with his number would be great. I have heard many rumors of somebody he wants to kick out. I have heard Kari, bryan and me so I have no clue what to think. I think me and him are pretty good buddies, he is really cool and I would like to be in a band with him. But if he wants to kick me out than he will and I will have no hard feelings.
I miss our little group of friends at school, I really do. I think that school not only being a necessary evil, helps us stay in contact. I mean it seems like yesterday that I was going to my first day of school and I was so excited. And now I am a Sophomore in high school and I have only three years of mandatory school left. I have survived the biggest challenges of school so now it is gonna begin to get easier and easier. I mean, school is kinda like a fores, you spend half the time walking in and half the time walking out. Those are the words of my dad and I never really realized how wise that really is. So I know I have three years left and that sounds like a long time, but this is hopefully going to be my ast year of having an absolute full schedule, I am going to take classes online so I might be able to graduate at semester during my senior year. That would be nice, I would be able to move to New York like I have planned and go to college up there. I would have to fly back down for graduation and ceremonies and all but I would like to move there and start college so I might be able to get through that chapter of my life.
My brother got an apartment up in Boston, it is wicked nice. I have only seen pictures he has sent me but it is really nice. It has a koi pond, and when I saw it, I wanted to take up hung fu ad yoga so I could sit out there and do kung fu and yoga and look cool doing it. I hope to go visit him before I go back to school, I really want to. But I dont know if I will be able to, because of my mom. I miss him, too, it seems like in a matter of seconds everyone is gone.
I still have to find a way to go see Jenny, I am gonna do it soon, maybe in two weeks, I dont know how I am gonna do it, I may not have a car yet. But I might take a bus down there and walk or whatever, if there is a will there is a way, and trust me lots of will here. Bryan wants to come, but I dont know if I want him to come. I mean I know he misses Jenny but him being an identity that he is. I dont know if I trust him or want to be around him on a ride down there. HE would bug the hell out of me and I know it.
I am thinking of changing my s/n to rybaby or something like that, what do you guys think. I am not afraid of that name. It has been my name for quite a while now and I guess to try and deny it is dumb and isnt gonna work. Well, it is 2 in the morning and I have to be up at 6, so i am gonna go try and carch somewhat of a nap and I will update again soon.
Jenny got me doing quizzes so here are my favorites:
You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good! Here some tips: 1. Be ready 2. no smoking 3. start slow 4. up the intensity 5. develop rhythm 6. change it up 7. pay attention to hands 8. experiment 9. respond 10. repeat
Romantic Kisser
75%
Your more of a class act than youre giving yourself credit for
56%
Yippy Ki Yay!
56%
How good do you kiss?
created with QuizFarm.com
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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