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What am I supposed to say to someone I haven't seen for 11 years, 5 months and 22 days?
elevenyearsfivemonthsandtwentytwodays...
4189 days
fourthousandonehundredandeightynine days.
I haven't seen you for 4189 days.
I haven't seen you face to face.
But you were on my radar every single day. Not in person, though.
Yet I've searched the internet, day by day, looking for news, for new pictures.
They don't do you justice. Too cool, too clean, too distant, too "photoshopped"...
In person you are so much more beautiful. Adorable. Gorgeous. Breathtaking.
It was always your whole package what did it to me: Your smile, your voice, you suddenly lifting your head and straightforwardly looking into my eyes.
You've moved on. Of course you did. Why wouldn't you?
Since it was me who pushed you away because of my ambiguity.
It was me who drove you insane because of my insecurity and hesitation.
It was me who hurt you not letting you in and yet not letting you go.
So you did the inevitable.
So you tore yourself away from me to simply survive.
So you cut all threads.
Seeing each other and not being with each other - it hurt too much. Both of us.
You did the right thing. You left.
There were days I wasn't sure anymore if you weren't only a dream, a fantasy, a figment of my imagination, because I couldn't bear my reality.
My reality that screamed: boredom, forced abstinence, persuaded guilt, incompleteness.
My reality that whispered: Look, you've got what you wanted. You've got what you deserve.
And now you are standing there - your back still towards me.
11 years, 5 months and 22 days couldn't change your exquisiteness. Au contraire.
My beautiful former almost lover. Please turn around. Please give me a sign, that you still know me.
Yes, please sense my eyes tenderly caressing your back.
O my God. You really turn and look at me, your eyes still do this thing, narrow an almost imperceptible bit before openly focusing on me.
Am I delusional or is this the hint of a well known crooked smile?
Am I hallucinating or are you really approaching me?
I can already hear you breathing, the heavy breathing you always do when you're nervous.
I can smell your special unique scent. You still wear Terre d'Hermes, I was almost addicted to, back then.
"Luke...?"
"Reid...!"
" 11 years, 5 months and 22 days..."
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So beautiful it hurts.
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Since Reid also knows the exact number of days, I would have hope...:)))
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Even after all that time apart they still feel that connection. *sigh*
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Who is that nice guy with those intense eyes on your avatar btw??
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