ANOTHER BREAK UP
Yup. I lost another one.
I don't know what it is about me that is making all my sweethearts run away from me.
I PROMISE I'm not who I used to be. [an entirely way too clingy girl]
I took my time with this one and it STILL didn't work out. Not even a month.
I just hope that I'll find someone that makes me feel as comfortable about myself as I did with Zack. He's fortunately still my friend. But it's still difficult trying to be friends when I want so much more. I wasn't ready for it to end... not yet. But I have to let go of some of the most precious people I know in my life.
For now though I'm busy looking into colleges and get ready for my field of study.
I'm going back for Zoology.
It's funny that I now realize that's what I want to do.. since that was my original plan in MIDDLE SCHOOL.
I don't know what made me change my mind about wanting to pursue that career, but I suppose it's better late than never.
Not only am I busy with that I'm also still settling this apartment business on my own making sure I get certain amounts of payments paid. I should be completely out of my debt by the end of June this year. Which will be amazing because then I can start making MY OWN MONEY since all of my money has gone to someone else for the past year 1/2.
So yeah, not too much has happened besides the fact that my birthday was Friday and I'm now 20.
and I miss the hell out of Zack, but hey I can't make people feel the way I want them to.
At least I have something to look forward to in 4 days. I'm totally stoked on seeing Kyle in Ohio this Sunday for the first time in 3 years! He's definitely my most loyal friend with the exception of a few others. This one week with him will definitely be one of my most memorable weeks of my life. I can't wait.
Well, I know no one reads my LJ anymore, but I'll still shout out to my close friends on here that I still love them and wish I could see most of them more often.
Till later.
Laura
I don't know what it is about me that is making all my sweethearts run away from me.
I PROMISE I'm not who I used to be. [an entirely way too clingy girl]
I took my time with this one and it STILL didn't work out. Not even a month.
I just hope that I'll find someone that makes me feel as comfortable about myself as I did with Zack. He's fortunately still my friend. But it's still difficult trying to be friends when I want so much more. I wasn't ready for it to end... not yet. But I have to let go of some of the most precious people I know in my life.
For now though I'm busy looking into colleges and get ready for my field of study.
I'm going back for Zoology.
It's funny that I now realize that's what I want to do.. since that was my original plan in MIDDLE SCHOOL.
I don't know what made me change my mind about wanting to pursue that career, but I suppose it's better late than never.
Not only am I busy with that I'm also still settling this apartment business on my own making sure I get certain amounts of payments paid. I should be completely out of my debt by the end of June this year. Which will be amazing because then I can start making MY OWN MONEY since all of my money has gone to someone else for the past year 1/2.
So yeah, not too much has happened besides the fact that my birthday was Friday and I'm now 20.
and I miss the hell out of Zack, but hey I can't make people feel the way I want them to.
At least I have something to look forward to in 4 days. I'm totally stoked on seeing Kyle in Ohio this Sunday for the first time in 3 years! He's definitely my most loyal friend with the exception of a few others. This one week with him will definitely be one of my most memorable weeks of my life. I can't wait.
Well, I know no one reads my LJ anymore, but I'll still shout out to my close friends on here that I still love them and wish I could see most of them more often.
Till later.
Laura