08/24/10
so i definitely abandoned this thing. i stopped writing, stopped leaving traces of weakness behind. it's good *i* think. anyway, i've been thinking about bringing this back for awhile now but never really did anything about it. story of the story of my life. !
i've been passing the time well. back to making things, which is always a good thing. i bought a wooden dollhouse in pieces from my store a few weeks ago. it was tough putting together! it said ages 6+ but there's no way a six year old could figure this out. the directions weren't directions but really a diagram of confusion. so i just used the picture on the front as a guide. at least it looks like a dollhouse! i've got so many pieces left, though, which makes me uneasy. WHERE DO THEY GO or did i just punch out a lot of unnecessary extras? who could know. another project ive got going on is this skull i picked up that i want to decoupage the shit ouf of. i'm thinking flowers though... the whole angle is that dear and the headlights song... you know the one- flowers for my brain. anyway, the line is "but your thoughts still bring flowers to my brain" i thought it was a really nice sentiment, enough to want to bring it out of song and keep it forever in my possession. somethin' i could touch, somethin' tangible. yeah i'm weird. i bought a classy gold frame today.... that totally conflicts with the silver hardware in my bedroom !i might just give it away to someone as a gift.
aw giiiiifts. i'd like to do something for september 2nd but i know its not really welcomed. or maybe. i dont really know! i wont divulge the whole plan but lets just say finding a way to him was a really big part of it. shhh. i dont know what's going on with that, so birthday planning will have to not exist for now. i know that i'm gonna make him something. but he'll it get when he decides to be cool again. !!! heh
in other news, they've been giving me soo many hours at work lately, which is nice! no complaints. i've been doing more and more returns, and marking clearance and other tasks of the FES. he hasn't offered me the position again but maybe if he does i wont be a fool this time and i'll accept it ha. more hours at work, less time spent doin' other things. haven't been hanging out as much... which i feel indifferent about. i like my time to myself but then i do it too much and i wanna go out. wanna be around people. blah blah time for sleep. cutting it short because i have to be up in a few hours.
i've been passing the time well. back to making things, which is always a good thing. i bought a wooden dollhouse in pieces from my store a few weeks ago. it was tough putting together! it said ages 6+ but there's no way a six year old could figure this out. the directions weren't directions but really a diagram of confusion. so i just used the picture on the front as a guide. at least it looks like a dollhouse! i've got so many pieces left, though, which makes me uneasy. WHERE DO THEY GO or did i just punch out a lot of unnecessary extras? who could know. another project ive got going on is this skull i picked up that i want to decoupage the shit ouf of. i'm thinking flowers though... the whole angle is that dear and the headlights song... you know the one- flowers for my brain. anyway, the line is "but your thoughts still bring flowers to my brain" i thought it was a really nice sentiment, enough to want to bring it out of song and keep it forever in my possession. somethin' i could touch, somethin' tangible. yeah i'm weird. i bought a classy gold frame today.... that totally conflicts with the silver hardware in my bedroom !i might just give it away to someone as a gift.
aw giiiiifts. i'd like to do something for september 2nd but i know its not really welcomed. or maybe. i dont really know! i wont divulge the whole plan but lets just say finding a way to him was a really big part of it. shhh. i dont know what's going on with that, so birthday planning will have to not exist for now. i know that i'm gonna make him something. but he'll it get when he decides to be cool again. !!! heh
in other news, they've been giving me soo many hours at work lately, which is nice! no complaints. i've been doing more and more returns, and marking clearance and other tasks of the FES. he hasn't offered me the position again but maybe if he does i wont be a fool this time and i'll accept it ha. more hours at work, less time spent doin' other things. haven't been hanging out as much... which i feel indifferent about. i like my time to myself but then i do it too much and i wanna go out. wanna be around people. blah blah time for sleep. cutting it short because i have to be up in a few hours.