SPN Fic: The Sum of All
Title: The Sum of All
Author: Lunardreamed
Rating: G
Category: Episode tag - “Born Under a Bad Sign”
Summary: Sam doesn’t need to apologize. Dean won’t.
Characters and Pairings: Jo
Spoilers: Born Under a Bad Sign
Series: N/A
Length: 300 words
Archive: Please tell me where.
Note: rinkle is my adored beta. This is kind of a reaction to other fics I’ve seen about Jo after BUABS.
Disclaimer: I mean no harm and make no money from this. The characters and concepts seen here are not mine.
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The Sum of All
Her phone rings once. The caller ID says “SAM,” and she doesn’t answer. He doesn’t call again. Dean never calls.
There’s no forgiving Sam. It’s an impossible quandary. It wasn’t Sam, so he doesn’t need to be forgiven. But she could never look into his face and forgive him, because that’s the face of her nightmares. It’s his voice that causes her breath to hitch; his name that causes her heart to pound.
And she’ll never trust Dean. She knows now, for sure, that he will always choose Sam.
It’s not that she blames him. Sure, she wouldn’t choose Sam over Dean, but she wouldn’t really choose Dean over Sam. A schoolgirl crush is nothing if faced with a demonic possession. She knows that you do what is necessary to stop the demon, or whatever it is. People die; they get hurt; they get sacrificed. Hunters keep more people from dying. They don’t save the ones already broken. There’s no survivors group; no prison to keep the badies in until they’re ‘reformed;' no specialized hospital for the victims. Hunters come in guns blazing and leave before the smoke clears. She always knew that, but now she’s learning it.
But she doesn’t blame him. Because, she wouldn’t choose some guy she barely knows over stopping the demon, even if she did “carry a torch for him,” but she’d choose her mother. If she had the chance, she’d choose her father over John Winchester. If she had a brother, she’d choose him over a boy who was crushing on her. So, there’s no apology needed, because she’d do the same thing.
But that just means that she really can’t trust Dean, because she knows what choice he’d make, and how can you trust your back to someone when you can never be sure that it’s yours he’s watching?
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Author: Lunardreamed
Rating: G
Category: Episode tag - “Born Under a Bad Sign”
Summary: Sam doesn’t need to apologize. Dean won’t.
Characters and Pairings: Jo
Spoilers: Born Under a Bad Sign
Series: N/A
Length: 300 words
Archive: Please tell me where.
Note: rinkle is my adored beta. This is kind of a reaction to other fics I’ve seen about Jo after BUABS.
Disclaimer: I mean no harm and make no money from this. The characters and concepts seen here are not mine.
_____________
The Sum of All
Her phone rings once. The caller ID says “SAM,” and she doesn’t answer. He doesn’t call again. Dean never calls.
There’s no forgiving Sam. It’s an impossible quandary. It wasn’t Sam, so he doesn’t need to be forgiven. But she could never look into his face and forgive him, because that’s the face of her nightmares. It’s his voice that causes her breath to hitch; his name that causes her heart to pound.
And she’ll never trust Dean. She knows now, for sure, that he will always choose Sam.
It’s not that she blames him. Sure, she wouldn’t choose Sam over Dean, but she wouldn’t really choose Dean over Sam. A schoolgirl crush is nothing if faced with a demonic possession. She knows that you do what is necessary to stop the demon, or whatever it is. People die; they get hurt; they get sacrificed. Hunters keep more people from dying. They don’t save the ones already broken. There’s no survivors group; no prison to keep the badies in until they’re ‘reformed;' no specialized hospital for the victims. Hunters come in guns blazing and leave before the smoke clears. She always knew that, but now she’s learning it.
But she doesn’t blame him. Because, she wouldn’t choose some guy she barely knows over stopping the demon, even if she did “carry a torch for him,” but she’d choose her mother. If she had the chance, she’d choose her father over John Winchester. If she had a brother, she’d choose him over a boy who was crushing on her. So, there’s no apology needed, because she’d do the same thing.
But that just means that she really can’t trust Dean, because she knows what choice he’d make, and how can you trust your back to someone when you can never be sure that it’s yours he’s watching?
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