Morning's Reflection
Forgive me for writing about it again--I dislike doing so, and I'm sure I've stressed repeatedly that I won't allow my life to be dictated by one single, if prolonged, event. However, I was reminded again yesterday evening of things I ought to have learned eight years ago.
After my trial, I told myself I would never regress to the inexcusable state I sank to during the two years while I was the city's Chief Prosecutor. I found myself doing so last night. There was the same feeling, or lack of it--the same irrationality and coldness that I find I am still capable of--in short, it was everything that I despise. It's best that I be open about my behavior rather than deny it; with honesty comes awareness and reform.
The experience was eye-opening, to say the least. I still have much to learn and much to grow, and there is no other way to do so aside from removing the triggers that cause us to senselessly hurt and be hurt alike. Prune away the dead and rotting leaves, so to speak, in order to allow for new growth.
I apologize to those who were involved.
After my trial, I told myself I would never regress to the inexcusable state I sank to during the two years while I was the city's Chief Prosecutor. I found myself doing so last night. There was the same feeling, or lack of it--the same irrationality and coldness that I find I am still capable of--in short, it was everything that I despise. It's best that I be open about my behavior rather than deny it; with honesty comes awareness and reform.
The experience was eye-opening, to say the least. I still have much to learn and much to grow, and there is no other way to do so aside from removing the triggers that cause us to senselessly hurt and be hurt alike. Prune away the dead and rotting leaves, so to speak, in order to allow for new growth.
I apologize to those who were involved.