Dec 02, 2006 06:15
so, listening to music at work, some lyrics have been hitting me hard. you know how that happens? when things resonate so deeply, better than you could have even known how to express? yeah?
well, here i am awake at an insane hour again (seb woke up a few minutes ago and told me to go back to bed...he even tried to shut my brain of at the switch by turning my ear...heh), so i decided to comb through some liz phair lyrics. woman's singing my songs. :)
a montage then...some new to me, some mere snippets...
*insanity*
You do me and you wind me up
Just to see me crack
Half the fun of being mean's to see me coming back
We've been through this so many times before
Shouldn't we be gettin' good at it
I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me
Don't you wanna find insanity with me
I'm not gettin' through to you on the phone
Lately when you're not around you couldn't be more gone
You're acting like you just turned 21 today
Struttin' in your new suit
You can't keep your mouth shut
But you don't have a single thing to say
I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me
Don't you wanna find insanity with me
Don't you love me anymore
Don't you love me anymore
I was happy to let you in my life
But you didn't even try to keep it alive
Come back to me
Don't you wanna find insanity with me
Don't you love me anymore
Don't you love me anymore
*extraordinary*
You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me
Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?
So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
*you have no idea*
You have no idea how much I love you
What I would do for your natural touch
And you have no idea just how I'd hold you
When I am woken from a dream, something bad had happened to us
But I would talk my mouth off
If I thought, oh yes, baby
It would glue you forever to me
And I've worn out my pride
And I've torn at the sky
And I've beaten at the devil
With one heathenist sigh
*freak of nature*
Don't it please you, daddy, don't it feel good?
Well, I always say, that's enough reason not to call it a freak of nature
Don't it stand out, daddy, don't you see it?
Well, I always say, that's enough reason not to call it a freak of nature
Man, if you've got a one in a million girl, don't let her get away
'Cause the next one in a million girl is a million girls away
So get up off of your ass, daddy, and call me on the phone
'Cause I'm sitting here waiting for you to ask me to be your one and only
This isn't lonely, just serious
Don't you want to, daddy, don't you need it?
Well, I always say, that's enough reason not to call it a freak of nature
*firewalker*
My hopes are like embers lying around inside a firebed and
Your mind is a firewalker, it steps on them like they are dead but
I can grow
In spite of all you know
You might not recognize me tomorrow
Yes I can change
In spite of all they say
Become something strange and beautiful
Like joy, like joy
Me, I'm like a wild flame that catches on whatever's near but
Your mind is a firewalker, it sets its course and never veers but
I can grow
In spite of all you know
You might not recognize me tomorrow
Yes I can change
In spite of all they say
Become something strange and beautiful
Like joy, like joy
*friend of mine*
Not a lot of patience
You're not a patient man
Don't have a heart to stay with
You get it while you can
Just because you can
Get out of it
And I wasted your time, didn't I and
That that's the reason we fight all the time
It's been so long since you've been a friend of mine
Gonna take a vacation
Stop chasing what I lack
Am I gonna get blown off
As soon as I get back
On another track
Without you
'Cause I don't have the heart to try
One more false start in life
It's been so hard to get it right
Seems like the moment I catch up
The farther you fly
And I wasted your time, didn't I and
That that's the reason we fight all the time
It's been so long since you've been a friend of mine
And I wasted your time, didn't I
And that's the reason we fight all the time
It's been so long since you've been a friend to me
It seems like I dreamed and now I'm waking up to daylight
What happened, when did you let go of me
I miss you so badly
*dead shark*
Don't be so rude
I was only trying to make conversation
Hey, don't go down, this is not going anywhere
Got a dead shark on our hands
Got a dead shark on our hands
Got a dead shark on our hands
I'm just trying to get a handle on this
I'm just trying to figure out where to stand
I'm just trying
So sue me for trying
Do I just have a problem, or did you also think that this was hot?
I really hate talking to you on the telephone
Can't we just work it out
That you come on over?
Can't we just work it out
That you stay here tonight?
I'm not looking over my shoulder
I'm not gazing up at the stars
I'm not thinking of five years in the future
I'm just wondering where you'll sleep tonight
*easy*
You can walk through walls
You can make the head on a doll spin around
And you can haunt the halls
But you can't ask me to make you feel at home
It's not that easy
*go on ahead*
You go on ahead, Honey
You have a good time there
You make me feel funny
I'm no ordinary lover or a friend
I believe we have things to do
I believe in myself and I believe in you
I believe when I sleep you are near to me
When you sleep, I am near to you
You walk out of the room with your hands so deep
In your pockets I don't recognize you
You say you're a ghost in our house and I realize
I do think I see through you
So you go on ahead, Honey
You have a good time there
You make me feel funny
I'm no ordinary lover or a friend
It's a death in our love that has brought us here
It's a birth that has changed our lives
It's a place that I hope we'll be leaving soon
And I fear for the year in his eyes
And it goes 'round in circles
One night is lovely
The next is brutal
And you and me are in way over our heads with this one, it's hard
To admit it
So you hold me and I can't feel you
We hurt but we smile
I promise I'll make it back
When the summer has warmed me awhile
You go on ahead, Honey
You have a good time there
You make me feel funny
I'm no ordinary lover or a friend
I believe we have things to do
I believe in myself and I believe in you
I believe when I sleep, you are near to me
When you sleep, I am near to you
*i know it's not easy*
Call me when you think the coast is clear
I've been hiding out almost a year
Is there something wrong?
What's taking you so long?
And yeah, I know it's not easy
You said if I waited it'd pay off
But my eyes are growing wild and my body's gone soft
Is there something wrong?
What's taking you so long?
And yeah, I know it's not easy
You said I should let go of your hand
But I don't even know if I can
You're the only one
You are the very sun to me
And you know it's not easy
You'd tell me, wouldn't you, if we needed to talk?
And you'd tell me, wouldn't you, if I'd pissed you off?
Is there something wrong?
What's taking you so long?
And yeah, I know it's not easy
Well, I look at the stars and I know you're under them
I look at the cars and I know you insure them
I look at the books and things people are reading
I know that you've written them, too
You've got so many little things to do
But then I look at my life and I know you've forgotten
The promise you made to me
I think that's rotten
I'm hopelessly lost and there's hardly a sound anymore
Coming through that can show me around
'Cause I'm endlessly, endlessly searching the crowd
Looking for something from you
Just one fucking measly clue
Any shitty little tip-off would do
But I'm just an ant in Alaska to you
*good love never dies*
For the rest of my days I want you by my side
Tell me what can I say to keep you in my life
'Cause I can never relax
I've got to keep it exciting
Make it attractive
Keep it alive
Keep you coming back
I'm always so frightened you'll see through my act
When the fire is out and I've given up
You come running out, and you build it up
You tell me good love never dies
It only hurts when we burn our eyes
From staring too long at the sun
You gotta throw your hands up
And let the night come
Spoken: I like watching you out there. It's comforting
Tell me what can I say to keep you in my life
All the words slip away when I look in your eyes
Because I can never relax
I've got to keep it exciting
Make it attractive
Keep it alive
Keep you coming back
I'm already fighting to keep what I have
When the fire is out and I've given up
You come running out, and you build it up
You tell me good love never dies
It only hurts when we burn our eyes
From staring too long at the sun
You gotta throw your hands up
And let the night come
Take your chances
And let the night come
*little digger*
I've done the damage the damage is done
I pray to God that I'm the damaged one
And all these grown up complications that you don't Understand
I hope you can some day i hope you can..
*red light fever*
Lyin' wide awake in the dark
Tryin' to figure out where you are
Always goin' nowhere
'Fraid of goin' somewhere
And somewhere's a place in your heart
Sometimes when I think about you
Why you're always running away
Sitting in your car
Changing who you are
And drowning the thoughts of your life in the music
Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
You can't commit to even her
How you gonna get through the year
You can't
Playin' on both sides of the net
Too many people want too many things
And you only want to forget
Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
Too scared to commit to even her
How you gonna make it through
You're always listenin'
You're always listenin'
You're always listenin'
To yourself
You're always thinkin'
You're always thinkin'
You know what everybody else
Should do with their lives
Lyin' wide awake in the dark
Tryin' to figure out where you are
Always goin' nowhere
'Fraid of goin' somewhere
And somewhere's a place in your heart
Somewhere's a place in your heart
Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
You can't commit to even her
Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
Too scared to commit to even her
How you gonna get through the year?
*sway*
Don't stray
Don't ever go away
you're much too smart for this
you know it gets the better of me
sometimes when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go
Losing my control
I'm practicing you're name
So I can say it to you're face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Tumbling out my mouth
And beat its time
Tell me why you say its infinitely true
Say or stay don't come and go like you do
Sway my way
yea i need to know all about you
and there's no cure
and no way to be sure
why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
it makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
And my logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten the every afternoon
say or stay
don't come and go like you do
sway my way
yea i need to know all about you
say or stay
don't come and go like you do
sway my way
I need to know all about you
its all because of you
its all because of you
now it all turns sour
come sweeten the every afternoon
its time tell me why
you say its infinitly true
say or stay
dont come and go like you do
sway my way
yea I need to kno all about you
say or stay
dont come and go like you do
sway my way
yea I need to kno all about you
its all because of you
its all because of you
its all because of you
*explain it to me*
You put in my hands a loaded gun
And then told me not to fire it
When you did the things you said were up to me
And then accused me of trying to fuck it up
But you've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
So take a deep breath and count back from ten
And maybe you'll be alright
And the license said you had to stick around until I was dead
But if you're tired of looking at my face, I guess I already am
But you've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
So take a deep breath and count back from ten
And maybe you'll be alright
*go west*
Take off
The parking brake
Go coasting
Into a different state
And I'm not looking forward to missing you
But I must have something better to do
I've got to tear my life apart
*support system*
I don't need a support system
Put your hand on my heart and listen
What I need is a dedication to last me all the way through
Pointing the finger, I'm counting on loving you
Over and above the passion
I'm connected to you.
*6'1"*
I bet you've long since passed understanding
What it takes to be satisfied
You're like a vine that keeps climbing higher
But all the money in the world is not enough
And all the bridges blown away keep floating up
*shatter*
I don't know if I could drive a car
Fast enough to get to where you are
or wild enough not to miss the boat completely
Honey, I'm thinking maybe
You know just maybe
I don't know if I could fly a plane
Well enough to tail spin out your name
Or high enough to lose control completely
Honey, I'm thinking maybe
You know just maybe, maybe
*strange loop*
Baby I'm tired of fighting
I always wanted you
I only wanted more than I knew
eloquence divine...
xoxo