can't sleep ( Read more... )

i let my crazy sneak up on me some times, it's like i let it have an inch because i can't see the harm, i agree with it once or twice, i don't correct my thinking once or twice, i believe it once or twice... and then it's too far gone and i'm fighting it instead of just keeping it out... and the fight is tiring and repeatetive and hurtful *sighs* i ( Read more... )

feeling empty and nervous, panicky, distressed...

i know it's my crazy/anxiety stuff playing up, that it's not really real, but it still feels like crap :(

friday night was everything i needed it to be and more *smiles warmly at the memories* instead of writing about the many many moments where things felt dizzyingly perfect i will simply remember and smile to myself ( Read more... )