Feeling Paranoid
Things have actually been going well for a whole month, so I am feeling really paranoid about something imploding. Or eveerything imploding. Like my new pagan group, which is not really new, but suddenly it has a slew of new members and I feel on the outside again. Oh, and our founder might be moving out of state. Like also work, because my boss's wife keeps acting like she doesn't want me around, and it seems like she is trying to train the new girl to replace me. Also, health: Cole and I have been fighting off a sinus infection, I think we did okay but I am having trouble sleeping again. So are we really ok, or are we headed for sickville?
Hmmm, anytime my sleep gets crappy I get to feeling weird/depressed/sickly, plus my past experiences with insomnia mean I have a feeling of impending doom when I haven't been sleeping. And then of course there's my writing...I think I will always be paranoid about that, no matter how I'm doing. So, maybe its just me...hope, hope.
Hmmm, anytime my sleep gets crappy I get to feeling weird/depressed/sickly, plus my past experiences with insomnia mean I have a feeling of impending doom when I haven't been sleeping. And then of course there's my writing...I think I will always be paranoid about that, no matter how I'm doing. So, maybe its just me...hope, hope.