with thoughts of you i am aglow
Is it lame that I went to three parties tonight and...
~ only had a little bit of fun?
~ got hit on by a pretty creepy guy who didn't even know when he graduated?
~ walked home by myself (which I ALWAYS give others shit for)?
~ was home by midnight?
~ talked on msn with my little sister?
~ am now here doing this?
I'm sick again. It never seems to end here in Camrose! I've been really tired lately. I think I am spreading myself a little thin. And I'm in inner conflict all over the place. I just about lost it in rehearsal today because I was convinced that Kevin never should have given me the lead and that I am terribley fucking it up. And things with Kyle are dumb. I feel like I keep throwing things (like my feelings) at him and I'm getting nothing back. I think about him all the time. And I don't know if I miss him because he's not here or because I think I should miss him. And I don't know where this is going. And I know that it's my own fault...I'm just losing it all over the place.
I think I just need some sleep and some alone time. Maybe a good strong cry. I seem to need to do that around this time every semester.
~ only had a little bit of fun?
~ got hit on by a pretty creepy guy who didn't even know when he graduated?
~ walked home by myself (which I ALWAYS give others shit for)?
~ was home by midnight?
~ talked on msn with my little sister?
~ am now here doing this?
I'm sick again. It never seems to end here in Camrose! I've been really tired lately. I think I am spreading myself a little thin. And I'm in inner conflict all over the place. I just about lost it in rehearsal today because I was convinced that Kevin never should have given me the lead and that I am terribley fucking it up. And things with Kyle are dumb. I feel like I keep throwing things (like my feelings) at him and I'm getting nothing back. I think about him all the time. And I don't know if I miss him because he's not here or because I think I should miss him. And I don't know where this is going. And I know that it's my own fault...I'm just losing it all over the place.
I think I just need some sleep and some alone time. Maybe a good strong cry. I seem to need to do that around this time every semester.