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[lumy12]

I had a lovely long weekend up in the mountains, and I whipped up this rambly LJ entry that combines Lost musings with personal. Plenty of spoilers for the finale. Also spoilers for Star Wars and Titanic, lolz. I mentioned Robin Hood once as well but I don't consider that a spoiler. I realize I'm alienating some readers by including all that

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[gizzi1213]

I want my e-cookie!!! I read all the way through it. Even read all the Lost stuff that makes no sense to me.

There were a few comments that I have to respond to however.

Obviously, there's a part of me that wants more, or my last little foray into dating wouldn't have happened. I just need to beat that part down with a stick!

If you want more the only way you can have more is by allowing yourself to open up to the experiences. That won't happen if you "beat that part down with a stick." And stop hiding behind the "person like me" line. A "person like you" might need to work at a relationship a bit more, but if you wanted one badly enough you'd do so.

I want to scream at him that he IS special!!!

I often feel like yelling the exact same thing at you!!!!!!!!

Some people are special, some are not. If all of us were special, the word would lose its meaning, wouldn't it?! It just cannot be so.

Not completely true in my opinion. I don't think that everyone needs to be special to EVERYONE else. However, everyone can be special to a

[lumy12]

You get THREE e-cookies! One for reading, one for reading even though you didn't watch Lost, and one for the long comment!

-I don't believe I want one badly enough. Not hypothetically speaking, anyway. Like you I'm rather set in my ways.

-I know, the seatbelt thing is stupid...I wear it when other people are with me or watching me drive away so as not to stir up drama. If I do that then why not ALL the time? I'll make a more conscious effort.

-Done with Robin Hood 'til the dvd comes out :)

Thanks, Shnookums <3

[sakura_ame]

I read through it all! :D I don't know one thing about lost though!

[lumy12]

E-cookies for you! Haha, I think the Lost people are more tired of reading/talking about Lost now than the non-Losties :D

[sakura_ame]

YAY! E-cookies~! <3

[darkp_hawk]

God... I can't believe I read that all.

Let's see where I want to start....

Why do I make it matter so much in my own head? There are plenty of reasons for me not to get involved with anyone.

There are plenty of reasons why none of us should get involve with other people! We still do because there is more to us than just the solitary person we claim to be. We can be more than the person we are right now and we can be a better version of ourselves by seeing us through other people's eyes.

Stop using "someone like me" while you're at it. What makes you so special that you get to isolate yourself away from the rest of us? You do not get to be all high and mighty on your throne of thorns; we won't allow it!

If someone can explain to me why I automatically fasten my seat belt during the week when I think I'm headed for romance and might possibly matter to some guy who doesn't give a rat's ass whether I live or die, and why I listen to the voice that tells me I'm not worth protecting at all other times, I'm all ears.You're afraid

[lumy12]

I do interact with you guys, though :P so if I'm on this thorny throne you guys are right there with me!

I'm fed up with men and with my own failures and just don't want to care anymore. I do care about YOU guys. You're not in the realm of dating!

[darkp_hawk]

No, we're standing near you but that throne of thorns is all yours, Wendy.

To not care is to cut yourself off from the dark side! The power that drives the darker side of ourselves is our ability to care at first! Anakin fell because he cared too much and he let his emotions drive him. Is that what you really want to tell your master? That you stopped letting your emotions guide you?

[lumy12]

Well if we're going the Anakin route... MY MASTER DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME *WHIIIIIIIIIIIIINE* SO IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT I DO!

[ansketil_rose]

I read it all! Even though I didn't understand anything about Lost... now I'm imagining smoke monster sex... O_O

wtf??

Anyway, self-esteem is a bit like a person on a roller-coast ser: sometimes it's up, sometimes it's down, sometimes it's upside down screaming its head off. The point is to HOLD ON and eventually you'll realise that you're awesome (you survived the roller-coaster after all), :)

You are loved. ♥

[lumy12]

Ooooo that would be hawt, esp. if he changed from human to smoke to human... O.o

The only time I truly feel good about myself is when I think some shmuck thinks I'm awesome. It's pathetic!

<333 You are loved MOAR!

[caffeinatedkate]

I read the whole thing even though I didn't watch Lost and only know a little bit about it.
Oddly enough, it sounds like the ending is very similar to Ashes to Ashes which I did watch and also ended this week.

[lumy12]

I'm amused that only non-Lost-watchers are responding. (actually, I'm not sure about darkp_hawk...I know he USED to watch it)

E-cookie for you!

[darkp_hawk]

I didn't watch Lost after the first few episodes. I knew they were never going to answer all the questions and I HATE LOOSE ENDS!!!!

[lumy12]

Pffffffffffffffffft.

I would have been more annoyed if they HAD answered them all. It would have been a letdown.