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[lumy12]

I had a lovely long weekend up in the mountains, and I whipped up this rambly LJ entry that combines Lost musings with personal. Plenty of spoilers for the finale. Also spoilers for Star Wars and Titanic, lolz. I mentioned Robin Hood once as well but I don't consider that a spoiler. I realize I'm alienating some readers by including all that

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[darkp_hawk]

God... I can't believe I read that all.

Let's see where I want to start....

Why do I make it matter so much in my own head? There are plenty of reasons for me not to get involved with anyone.

There are plenty of reasons why none of us should get involve with other people! We still do because there is more to us than just the solitary person we claim to be. We can be more than the person we are right now and we can be a better version of ourselves by seeing us through other people's eyes.

Stop using "someone like me" while you're at it. What makes you so special that you get to isolate yourself away from the rest of us? You do not get to be all high and mighty on your throne of thorns; we won't allow it!

If someone can explain to me why I automatically fasten my seat belt during the week when I think I'm headed for romance and might possibly matter to some guy who doesn't give a rat's ass whether I live or die, and why I listen to the voice that tells me I'm not worth protecting at all other times, I'm all ears.You're afraid

[lumy12]

I do interact with you guys, though :P so if I'm on this thorny throne you guys are right there with me!

I'm fed up with men and with my own failures and just don't want to care anymore. I do care about YOU guys. You're not in the realm of dating!

[darkp_hawk]

No, we're standing near you but that throne of thorns is all yours, Wendy.

To not care is to cut yourself off from the dark side! The power that drives the darker side of ourselves is our ability to care at first! Anakin fell because he cared too much and he let his emotions drive him. Is that what you really want to tell your master? That you stopped letting your emotions guide you?

[lumy12]

Well if we're going the Anakin route... MY MASTER DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME *WHIIIIIIIIIIIIINE* SO IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT I DO!

[darkp_hawk]

Ah!!! Don't turn the power of the whine towards me! I'm sure Ansketil didn't forsaken you!

[lumy12]

She likes me okay but I... think she has other apprentices she likes better. *pathetic sniffle*

[darkp_hawk]

I don't know... the rule of two and all.

[lumy12]

If there can only be two, I'm doomed! Cursed to play second (fourth? fifteenth?) fiddle to her other half!

[darkp_hawk]

You can kill her and find your own apprentice?

[lumy12]

That's what I should do, as a good Sithling... but...but... I luuuurve her! Oh what to do!

[darkp_hawk]

...Let her take over a planet and then blow the planet up with the Death Star? You wouldn't just be killing her; you would kill off a lot of other people. Some of those people could have pissed you off?

[lumy12]

Wait, so are you pro- or anti- blowing up the Death Star, Jedi? Killing people who pissed me off sounds like PRO to me...

[darkp_hawk]

Like all weapons, it depends on who is using the Death Star. Palpatine and Vader using to kill off an innocent planet- bad. You using it to get rid of a planet full of douches and your master- tolerable.

Its rather a point of view than a firm stance.

[lumy12]

I can't kill my master. She could break my heart into little tiny pieces and still I wouldn't be able to kill her. WOE

[darkp_hawk]

...You fail as a Sith! Siths are suppose to be power hungry and strive for being #1!

[lumy12]

I know! I'm too content with #2!

(that sounds gross!)

I also fail at reading my f-list today. It's all Deborah's fault.