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My grades didn't turn out as bad as I thought they would be. I got a B+ in my field study course, A- in San Francisco Literature (which I never went to), and a B in Reform Policy (which is a big surprise since I got a C- on one of the papers). This is really a big boost because I was feeling really shitty. The problem with me feeling shitty now is that it just isn't about me anymore, it also affects Adam and other people. I had never realized that before. Adam has felt like our relationship has been going downhill because I've been going downhill. I didn't realize how much my insecurity affects the security of our relationship. I'm being far too hard on myself right now about finding a job. I just need to chill out and relax and do what I need to do.