Quit
When I accepted this writing job, I told myself that I wanted to be a team leader. Surprisingly, the company announced that a team leader position was open just after a week or two since I started. Being an excited and idealistic newbie employee that I was, I bravely told my team leader that I wanted to take an exam for the position. So I did and got interviewed by the bosses. On the second interview, I remember the company owner asked, "What if you won't be accepted? The only words I told her then were "I'm willing to learn."
So the announcement came and I wasn't chosen. But that was fine with me because I knew for myself that I still have lots to know about the company, my job, and life. Since that day, I just told myself that I have to do good. I have to learn and learn and learn. Everyday I was excited of my assignments and the surprises that might come my way as an employee at Ortigas. Well, I thought there were surprises. But as days passed, everything seemed predictable. Things were getting irksome and boring.
Come November, the last month for my 5-month contract, the thought of quitting bumped my head because of the routinary lifestyle. Imagine, I had to write 12-13 entries for casino blogs everyday! Not to mention the links, article checker, comments, forums, and pressure from my new team leader (a well-known OC and strict TL at that!) which were all attached to such project. Though I got used to casino blog writing and my office/grammar rank was good, I wanted to quit. Why? Because of the ghosts of casino. Can you imagine yourself going home, eating, and sleeping with casino subjects on your mind? Those were all casino ghosts that kept on following me anywhere. I know it was insane and that was why I wanted to quit! But my close friend asked me to stay.
Aside from that, Christmas was coming. After all I wanted to experience how to celebrate Christmas with officemates, so I gave my job one more try. Christmas was the most exciting, blissful, creative, and colorful moment of my life at the office. Apart from being the party emcee and presentation director, I met someone who showed me the difference between fake and true love. Because of that man, I learned that butterflies in the stomach don't last and those goosebumps feelings whenever you're with a man don't mean love. Love is someone who stays no matter how many times you let him go and no matter how much you hurt him. Love is someone who tells you "It's okay as long as you are happy." It is someone who makes you cry not because he hurts you but because he's worthy of your tears.
...I'll continue this entry next time.
So the announcement came and I wasn't chosen. But that was fine with me because I knew for myself that I still have lots to know about the company, my job, and life. Since that day, I just told myself that I have to do good. I have to learn and learn and learn. Everyday I was excited of my assignments and the surprises that might come my way as an employee at Ortigas. Well, I thought there were surprises. But as days passed, everything seemed predictable. Things were getting irksome and boring.
Come November, the last month for my 5-month contract, the thought of quitting bumped my head because of the routinary lifestyle. Imagine, I had to write 12-13 entries for casino blogs everyday! Not to mention the links, article checker, comments, forums, and pressure from my new team leader (a well-known OC and strict TL at that!) which were all attached to such project. Though I got used to casino blog writing and my office/grammar rank was good, I wanted to quit. Why? Because of the ghosts of casino. Can you imagine yourself going home, eating, and sleeping with casino subjects on your mind? Those were all casino ghosts that kept on following me anywhere. I know it was insane and that was why I wanted to quit! But my close friend asked me to stay.
Aside from that, Christmas was coming. After all I wanted to experience how to celebrate Christmas with officemates, so I gave my job one more try. Christmas was the most exciting, blissful, creative, and colorful moment of my life at the office. Apart from being the party emcee and presentation director, I met someone who showed me the difference between fake and true love. Because of that man, I learned that butterflies in the stomach don't last and those goosebumps feelings whenever you're with a man don't mean love. Love is someone who stays no matter how many times you let him go and no matter how much you hurt him. Love is someone who tells you "It's okay as long as you are happy." It is someone who makes you cry not because he hurts you but because he's worthy of your tears.
...I'll continue this entry next time.