ick.
I feel down but not for one specific reason or anything. all the little things.
I rarely feel 'down'. I'm actually usually perpetually sickeningly optimistic.
It's like this feeling: your feet have been knocked out from under you, and you can only see half the things around you, and you're just looking around you, squinting and trying to get past your blurry vision.
like that. I'm exhausted of everything.
I don't feel like doing much anymore. I don't feel like doing all that stuff I was supposed to do. I don't want to work. I don't want to study. I don't want to show up for anything. I just want to close my eyes and just sleep. I don't feel like following through anything. I don't feel like arguing. I don't feel like caring anymore.
Everything feels like a waste.
I guess I'm just not quite used to this. I was pretty comfortable being 'not noticed' a few months ago.
I shouldn't have woken up this morning. I shouldn't have called shaun. I shouldn't have left the house. I shouldn't have waited next to the portables to 'surprise' brittnee. I shouldn't have gone to stu's house. I shouldn't have tried to be a little more like my old self.
I rarely feel 'down'. I'm actually usually perpetually sickeningly optimistic.
It's like this feeling: your feet have been knocked out from under you, and you can only see half the things around you, and you're just looking around you, squinting and trying to get past your blurry vision.
like that. I'm exhausted of everything.
I don't feel like doing much anymore. I don't feel like doing all that stuff I was supposed to do. I don't want to work. I don't want to study. I don't want to show up for anything. I just want to close my eyes and just sleep. I don't feel like following through anything. I don't feel like arguing. I don't feel like caring anymore.
Everything feels like a waste.
I guess I'm just not quite used to this. I was pretty comfortable being 'not noticed' a few months ago.
I shouldn't have woken up this morning. I shouldn't have called shaun. I shouldn't have left the house. I shouldn't have waited next to the portables to 'surprise' brittnee. I shouldn't have gone to stu's house. I shouldn't have tried to be a little more like my old self.