I hate
Today I hate not knowing why I am so mad. I mean there is nothing wrong. I am just mad and sad. My husband is so mad about me being so down that he has seriously thought about moving out. He says he can't stand to be around me when I am like this. He says he has only seen me like this 4 times in 11 years and he can't handle it. Sometimes I think things would be better if he did just go. Then I wouldn't have to worry about bringing his negative ass down even more than it already is. He is so self involved that he doesn't even want to take the time to learn about my illness. He says it is fake. He says that it is just an excuse to be sad about nothing. Then when I am manic (the few times I have been) he thinks I have had too much caffeine.
I have a friend. I don't think he knows the extent of my bipolar. I talk with him every night. It isn't anything sexual, so don't go there. He is just my friend. I am just his friend. I don't think he realizes how bad I can get. Like now.
My son is intentionally annoying me so I will let him go to the neighbor's house. He is grounded for lying to me. So he thinks if he irritates me enough, I will send him outside. Little does he know I am ready to send him to his room for the day.......
done.
I don't know why there are so many bees out today. It is making it so the kids can't play outside. We got these really cool outdoor toys this weekend as a hand me down/trade for babysitting. We can't play on them because of the bees. If I knew where their nest was, I would remove it.
I bought new shoes this weekend. I like new shoes. I watch my feet when I walk when I have on new shoes.
I have a friend. I don't think he knows the extent of my bipolar. I talk with him every night. It isn't anything sexual, so don't go there. He is just my friend. I am just his friend. I don't think he realizes how bad I can get. Like now.
My son is intentionally annoying me so I will let him go to the neighbor's house. He is grounded for lying to me. So he thinks if he irritates me enough, I will send him outside. Little does he know I am ready to send him to his room for the day.......
done.
I don't know why there are so many bees out today. It is making it so the kids can't play outside. We got these really cool outdoor toys this weekend as a hand me down/trade for babysitting. We can't play on them because of the bees. If I knew where their nest was, I would remove it.
I bought new shoes this weekend. I like new shoes. I watch my feet when I walk when I have on new shoes.