I am a dork
I feel somehow like my presence here on earth is some reflection of being an evil cow in a previous life I am no longer all that depressed but I am enormously disatisfied....
went out with Pip for the first time in like 8 months yesterday night and that was fun collected and exchanged christmas presents (yep we haven't seen each other in that long!!) which was cool cos I got some nice smellies (yes I am one of those tragic bastards who likes them) but sucked because I had earmarked Pip's christmas present for myself....it was a really nice black mock leather wrap around notebook (my feeble words do it no justice whatsoever)
Today went to see Sarah watched the Constant Gardener and had a nice paid for by her pub lunch so all in all things have been rather nice the past few days but then I still feel this sense of immense disatisfaction when I realise that in fact the sad thing is that I have to go back to work at Sainsers tommorow (albeit with lovely people on the same shift) but at my heart I am disatisfied that I haven't progressed in life and that I haven't located another job (not that my brother has let me near the computer at all the past few days but still) because I will always feel MONUMENTALLY shitty as a person until I can sort that.
Am gonna go see Confetti tommorow before work though and it'll be nice to be alone again in a deeply grumpy and unsociable way....I am so strange I love people and want to be with them so much but at the same time I am annoyed at the hassles of them - so I don't seek company - I just have to be alone sometimes....
Bought My Own Private Idaho for just 3 earth pounds and well it reminded me poor poor poor River Pheonix..... R.I.P.
How comes he did that to himself when he was so beautiful??? Wait a minute how comes anyone at anytime does that to themselves?? I don't understand people so how the hell would I know?? I remember when I was at school and was obsessed with him and rightly pleased that noone knew who he was.....like I said if only I had cottoned onto the smiths back then.....lol
and well poor Mike Walters (his character my own private idaho he's nota got much of a life as a narcoleptic gay prostitute in love with a disinterested Keanu Reeves - poor guy....
Anyway also got Dahmer which is a made for nought pence biopic of the infamous Milwaukee serial killer Jeffery Dahmer (unsuprisingly) which I own already but bought again because it was tres cheap and I can't find my other disk......it is a suprisingly good fillum made that way by the fact that Jeremy Renner is so good as what I imagine Dahmer would be like so effortlessly sleazy and sinister and peverted and yet so vulnerable and pitiable too....anyway certainly one of the best of the recent spate of cheaply made serial killer flicks in case you were curious to ever watch one?? take my advice cos some are truly dire
Anyway Jeremy Renner is also quite a QT
So there!!!
went out with Pip for the first time in like 8 months yesterday night and that was fun collected and exchanged christmas presents (yep we haven't seen each other in that long!!) which was cool cos I got some nice smellies (yes I am one of those tragic bastards who likes them) but sucked because I had earmarked Pip's christmas present for myself....it was a really nice black mock leather wrap around notebook (my feeble words do it no justice whatsoever)
Today went to see Sarah watched the Constant Gardener and had a nice paid for by her pub lunch so all in all things have been rather nice the past few days but then I still feel this sense of immense disatisfaction when I realise that in fact the sad thing is that I have to go back to work at Sainsers tommorow (albeit with lovely people on the same shift) but at my heart I am disatisfied that I haven't progressed in life and that I haven't located another job (not that my brother has let me near the computer at all the past few days but still) because I will always feel MONUMENTALLY shitty as a person until I can sort that.
Am gonna go see Confetti tommorow before work though and it'll be nice to be alone again in a deeply grumpy and unsociable way....I am so strange I love people and want to be with them so much but at the same time I am annoyed at the hassles of them - so I don't seek company - I just have to be alone sometimes....
Bought My Own Private Idaho for just 3 earth pounds and well it reminded me poor poor poor River Pheonix..... R.I.P.
How comes he did that to himself when he was so beautiful??? Wait a minute how comes anyone at anytime does that to themselves?? I don't understand people so how the hell would I know?? I remember when I was at school and was obsessed with him and rightly pleased that noone knew who he was.....like I said if only I had cottoned onto the smiths back then.....lol
and well poor Mike Walters (his character my own private idaho he's nota got much of a life as a narcoleptic gay prostitute in love with a disinterested Keanu Reeves - poor guy....
Anyway also got Dahmer which is a made for nought pence biopic of the infamous Milwaukee serial killer Jeffery Dahmer (unsuprisingly) which I own already but bought again because it was tres cheap and I can't find my other disk......it is a suprisingly good fillum made that way by the fact that Jeremy Renner is so good as what I imagine Dahmer would be like so effortlessly sleazy and sinister and peverted and yet so vulnerable and pitiable too....anyway certainly one of the best of the recent spate of cheaply made serial killer flicks in case you were curious to ever watch one?? take my advice cos some are truly dire
Anyway Jeremy Renner is also quite a QT
So there!!!