What comes next?
So, I'm lying awake trying desperately to be asleep. It doesn't work too well. Nor does trying to clear my mind and calm everything so that I can just drift off, because that takes effort.
My brain keeps going until it runs completely out. And even then sometimes it won't stop.
The trick is that today, I only have about two hours left in which i COULD sleep, and then I am getting up to go to my parents' house for dinner and family time, something that happens so rarely I really can't bear to miss it.
But this is all secondary to what I'm actually wanting to write here.
What comes next, subject line, refers to creation. My last great work was Mark, and it was lost due to a hard drive crash. I'm finally feeling up to the task of creating another story, but I still have no muse.
For Mark, I wanted to estimate where I'd be without having met Mystee. That's the short version, anyway. If I hadn't returned to God, if I'd continued in my path of theatre, and resumed my decline into a kind of religious vacuum. It started there, and grew into itself quickly. And it was, to my way of thinking, beautiful.
Writing a new story without a muse is completely pointless. I cannot put my heart into something when I don't have any interest in it. I don't want to take a D&D setting and just write there, because that's why I play D&D. I want to write something of my own; my own species, my own settings, etc. Sure, Mark was entirely humans in a modern-day setting, but that's still MINE.
And so here I am, I guess.
If my games were going faster, I wouldn't have so much creative energy to sit idle. Most of them are stalled, and the few that aren't seem to be in combat situations (which don't really permit much depth). Hero Worship, the story-heavy game I am DMing, is actually at a place where I'm sitting back and watching the players interact for a while, so I haven't posted there in a week or two.
...ok, guess I'm done.
My brain keeps going until it runs completely out. And even then sometimes it won't stop.
The trick is that today, I only have about two hours left in which i COULD sleep, and then I am getting up to go to my parents' house for dinner and family time, something that happens so rarely I really can't bear to miss it.
But this is all secondary to what I'm actually wanting to write here.
What comes next, subject line, refers to creation. My last great work was Mark, and it was lost due to a hard drive crash. I'm finally feeling up to the task of creating another story, but I still have no muse.
For Mark, I wanted to estimate where I'd be without having met Mystee. That's the short version, anyway. If I hadn't returned to God, if I'd continued in my path of theatre, and resumed my decline into a kind of religious vacuum. It started there, and grew into itself quickly. And it was, to my way of thinking, beautiful.
Writing a new story without a muse is completely pointless. I cannot put my heart into something when I don't have any interest in it. I don't want to take a D&D setting and just write there, because that's why I play D&D. I want to write something of my own; my own species, my own settings, etc. Sure, Mark was entirely humans in a modern-day setting, but that's still MINE.
And so here I am, I guess.
If my games were going faster, I wouldn't have so much creative energy to sit idle. Most of them are stalled, and the few that aren't seem to be in combat situations (which don't really permit much depth). Hero Worship, the story-heavy game I am DMing, is actually at a place where I'm sitting back and watching the players interact for a while, so I haven't posted there in a week or two.
...ok, guess I'm done.