Entry #1 - Being hard on myself- severely + revenge
As with Angie, she told me... Oh hey I broke up with my boyfriend, he was too boring. Well, I kidna hoped she knew that pain she put him through in that scenario. And it came today- she was in class bawling her eyes out the whole time period about someone using her, or using her friend, or something. Me? I didn't look at her, I feel she deserved it, I cared absolutely nothing about what she felt... And also since she left me out of her life so long ago as heart broken as I was... People do get what they deserve. What a horrible thing to do to a person. A person is not meant to be used and thrown out- seriously, for any reason. I don't need anyone anymore, just Dark. Everyone else just never learns, i'm sick of friends who I can't trust and don't learn empathy and karma.
.... This blasted year, since I started college it hasn't been that good. The reason why is ... I am not at all a chemistry teacher, or her 78% of the classmates passing her test is actually very low.
Since the lowest grade i've ever received being 42%... And people literally crying out the door because she's so blasted picky... I'm going to get my counselor, and I will either find a way to SAVE my gpa before it's toast, I cant drop out because it'd bring my grade to a zero... I am hoping I can actually switch, or re-take and it'll replace it. Anyone but her o.o; She actually expected we knew what the most chemically active element was off the bat? We never studied chemically active compounds/elements! I do her questions with algebra, and they're wrong because she wants them done HER way. Someone missed one label in the work they've shown although included in their answer, and it's marked WRONG? This is severe madness, neither do I wish to live if I have to get such a low grade. Yeah, i'm being way over the edge, because I've never had a low grade! I never wanted one. Gosh dangit~ I want to take California community college with residence now, and I want to start it soon.
I did learn about myself. I can learn everything, anything... Except attaching numbers to anything besides counting. I can't attach a number to 1 cm, or a number to an inch without years and years and years of repetition. I prefer computers, they show the answer. I don't want to convert in fractions knowing what even goes into what. I can't even remember if a liter goes into a gallon or not. For pete's sake. This is the only subject I fail at and AHM not happy about chemistry! I'm not doing it again. It's worse than remembering someone's name, or guessing what someone is named after first meeting them. Seriously. If I see an image or a picture, I can clearly remember it. I can't remember numbers, they aren't in my head.
.... This blasted year, since I started college it hasn't been that good. The reason why is ... I am not at all a chemistry teacher, or her 78% of the classmates passing her test is actually very low.
Since the lowest grade i've ever received being 42%... And people literally crying out the door because she's so blasted picky... I'm going to get my counselor, and I will either find a way to SAVE my gpa before it's toast, I cant drop out because it'd bring my grade to a zero... I am hoping I can actually switch, or re-take and it'll replace it. Anyone but her o.o; She actually expected we knew what the most chemically active element was off the bat? We never studied chemically active compounds/elements! I do her questions with algebra, and they're wrong because she wants them done HER way. Someone missed one label in the work they've shown although included in their answer, and it's marked WRONG? This is severe madness, neither do I wish to live if I have to get such a low grade. Yeah, i'm being way over the edge, because I've never had a low grade! I never wanted one. Gosh dangit~ I want to take California community college with residence now, and I want to start it soon.
I did learn about myself. I can learn everything, anything... Except attaching numbers to anything besides counting. I can't attach a number to 1 cm, or a number to an inch without years and years and years of repetition. I prefer computers, they show the answer. I don't want to convert in fractions knowing what even goes into what. I can't even remember if a liter goes into a gallon or not. For pete's sake. This is the only subject I fail at and AHM not happy about chemistry! I'm not doing it again. It's worse than remembering someone's name, or guessing what someone is named after first meeting them. Seriously. If I see an image or a picture, I can clearly remember it. I can't remember numbers, they aren't in my head.