Speaking of Which...

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Hmm...can't sleep tonight. jealous, aren't ya? Went to Todd and Dee's today for a Memorial Day cookout. Brian and Amy were there (Todd's sister and brother-in-law.) They have one son, Cameron, and are expecting a little girl in early Sept. Again, Dee is preggers with her twins, due in mid Spet. Yes, I was the only one there who wasn't knocked up. That's fine! I don't mind getting wasted by myself. :) I was watching Hailey play in the yard and I felt the yearning hit me so hard. I want so much to be able to watch my own child run in the back yard, and think.."that's mine. I made that." It's just a matter of waiting and the right time, or the most inconvenient, since that is when it seems to happen the most. I don't doubt I will have children, it's just a question of when. I am terribly excited just to say that I am ready to be one. I'm ready to be exhausted, overwhelmed, frustrated, overjoyed and content. I have recognized that my whole life will be filled with struggles and bad luck, that's just how it goes, but I don't mind. Sooner or later I will get there; It may not be easy, but I will get there. The first step is actually believing that. That's hard since I am prone to having bad luck.

ANywho...in other news I saw the new Indy the other night. There was only about 10 people in the theater and 6 consisted of Adam and I, Aaron Esche, Austin Mitchell and Cody and Sarah. What a fabulous movie! It def wasn't my fave but I truly enjoyed seeing Harrison Ford going back to his roots and of course Mr. LaBeouf. By the way, yes! His last name really translates to "the beef" in French. going on 4 years now, so I better have learned something from French class. :)

I just finished P.s. I love You and I am a hot mess right now (too much crying) so I am off to bed. Goodnight! I hope you all have a very drunken Memorial Day!