rant
AllKnowingGreat1: no i can't tone it down, i mean, i move here and i'm like freaking out cuz ppl here are so quick to make assumptions on EVERYTHING, and it's so weird. i do one thing and instantly ppl are like, "oh okay, so she's just very open." i say something else and they're like, "oh okay, she's nice" and then i do something else and they're like, "okaaay now i get it, she's just weird"
and i'm like, hey, what's going on? should i just smile and act stupid the way i did all my life until i was in seventh grade and i met ppl who taught me to be who i wanted to be and do what i wanted to do despite the onlookers
so hey, finally, i'm comfortable with myself and it's like, what....ppl here can't handle that? what, should i be more like you? or amelia? or what? should i just completely not bother with any of you since it would so totally be the easy way to go and forget you all?
then i could just get accustomed to a whole new group of ppl but hey, at least they wouldn't be "overwhelmed" with my personality
i'm so depressed. what is it with ppl here? i mean, seriously? i don't understand anyone. everyone here...is so fake. i mean, they say things and i don't think they even realize their own opinion. now i know why so many high school teachers here try so hard to get their students to think. because so many of them don't. i don't even care who reads this, and i could care less what you think. i'm venting right now, cuz that's the reason i have this thing. there are so many ppl here that just expect something to either be right or wrong. then they decide to fill in the shades of gray with random assumptions. why not have a blurred image at first and allow the image to clear with time? IS THAT TOO HARD OF AN IDEA FOR YOU ARKANSAS?????? at least, in ohio, people waited to get an idea. not marked you with a stereotype and left it at that. you know what, forget it. why bother venting? it's not like anyone reading will actually care. after all, if they didn't have the GUTS to BOTHER to KNOW me before assumptions were made, FORGET IT. they obviously aren't going to want to bother to know my opinion on anything else. why should they? my opinion doesn't matter. a long with the rest of the other billions of people in this world. why bother to build a defense when the judge has already deemed me guilty? i am so filled with anger and hate and frustration right now and i know i should love. but it's so hard to love when no one loves you. when all you are is blamed for being selfish. i have enough shit going on here in this freakin household i have to put up with the stupidity from the people here????!!!! i have ONE GOOD DAY AND WHAT?? I DON'T DESERVE IT??? I DON'T DESERVE MY GOOD DAY? FOR ONE GOOD DAY AM I SUPPOSED TO BE FACED WITH SUCH A HORRIBLE NIGHT. WELL, THANKS ARKANSAS. THANKS A LOT.
i just want to go home. if home is where the heart is, then my home is six feet under a marble stone engraved with "rest in peace". i just want to go home
and i'm like, hey, what's going on? should i just smile and act stupid the way i did all my life until i was in seventh grade and i met ppl who taught me to be who i wanted to be and do what i wanted to do despite the onlookers
so hey, finally, i'm comfortable with myself and it's like, what....ppl here can't handle that? what, should i be more like you? or amelia? or what? should i just completely not bother with any of you since it would so totally be the easy way to go and forget you all?
then i could just get accustomed to a whole new group of ppl but hey, at least they wouldn't be "overwhelmed" with my personality
i'm so depressed. what is it with ppl here? i mean, seriously? i don't understand anyone. everyone here...is so fake. i mean, they say things and i don't think they even realize their own opinion. now i know why so many high school teachers here try so hard to get their students to think. because so many of them don't. i don't even care who reads this, and i could care less what you think. i'm venting right now, cuz that's the reason i have this thing. there are so many ppl here that just expect something to either be right or wrong. then they decide to fill in the shades of gray with random assumptions. why not have a blurred image at first and allow the image to clear with time? IS THAT TOO HARD OF AN IDEA FOR YOU ARKANSAS?????? at least, in ohio, people waited to get an idea. not marked you with a stereotype and left it at that. you know what, forget it. why bother venting? it's not like anyone reading will actually care. after all, if they didn't have the GUTS to BOTHER to KNOW me before assumptions were made, FORGET IT. they obviously aren't going to want to bother to know my opinion on anything else. why should they? my opinion doesn't matter. a long with the rest of the other billions of people in this world. why bother to build a defense when the judge has already deemed me guilty? i am so filled with anger and hate and frustration right now and i know i should love. but it's so hard to love when no one loves you. when all you are is blamed for being selfish. i have enough shit going on here in this freakin household i have to put up with the stupidity from the people here????!!!! i have ONE GOOD DAY AND WHAT?? I DON'T DESERVE IT??? I DON'T DESERVE MY GOOD DAY? FOR ONE GOOD DAY AM I SUPPOSED TO BE FACED WITH SUCH A HORRIBLE NIGHT. WELL, THANKS ARKANSAS. THANKS A LOT.
i just want to go home. if home is where the heart is, then my home is six feet under a marble stone engraved with "rest in peace". i just want to go home