wonderful recollection
i just ended a conversation with a very good friend of mine from ohio. his name is ian young. i never realized just how much i really miss him. i think it's wonderful that even though i'm over 800 miles away, i still have people who confide in me. it's a little odd, but it's very nice. it lets me know that even though i'm gone i'm not forgotten and i'm still trusted. i really miss him though. i supposed i never thought i was going to miss ian because we were never that close to begin with. he was just someone from my group of friends who was in band, liked the same music, liked to sing, and was cool to talk to. but through it all, he was definately one of the sweetest guys that i knew. or know, i should say. i remember on every holiday, i could always count on ian to give me a flower. whether it be st. patricks day, or valentines day, or anything like that. it's amazing the people that you never realize have a type of impact in your life until they're gone. i really miss ian. in fact, i miss everyone from ohio. it's hard to think of how they were my 'group'. whenever someone was going to be done, we had to have the 'group' do it. whether it was the movies, a get-together at a friends, or anything like that. it was always the 'group'. the group consisted of kristin hodges, ian young, nick dominique, shay workman, samantha mcconnell, justin myers, ben gombash and myself. other people that often joined us were robert self, paul roberts, zach hendrix, brian bachler, alex westmeyer, and sometimes erin hulme. we always had so much fun. it was the group that you could be completely comfortable with. and we were all really close. we may not have shown it, but we would have done a lot for each other. within the group we had people that were closer to each other. example: nick, kristin, and i were usually together. shay was with sam. and justin, ian, and ben hung out. the other random people that joined us were usually pretty flexible. i always thought i was going to just miss the main people i hung out with. but it was so much more than that. i miss all of them, i just wish i would have spent more time with certain people. it's sad because the last few weeks that i was in swanton, i stayed with the same three people thinking that i should hang out with them more because i knew that i was going to miss them most. but really, i miss all of them. and i really miss the ones that i never talked to much. right now, i have to admit, i find it good not quite having that person of complete confidence yet because it gives me more time to think and organize my emotions and my ideas and it kinda helps me. i really miss some people though. it's really sad.