Kill me please, I'm begging you.

[lucyintherye]

Wow today has sucked so much! I wanted to go to The Gooches show tonight in Beaumont and I had planned on going with Katy but she left foe koontz without me because I forgot to tell her early enough for her to make plans to take me with her, now I'm going insane with lack of entertainment. There is NO ONE to hang out with. My mom and I got in a big fight shes done nothing but yell at me all weekend and Im's so sick of it so she sitting there screaming at me and I just look at her and say JUST KILL ME PLEASE your driving me into killing myself anyways if you hate me so much just go for it KILL ME we'll both be MUCH happier. God I swear she hates me but I guess I hate me too. Do you ever just get the feeling when your driving in a car and you wish so hard that you could just have the courage to drive off a bridge or into a tree and you wouldnt die quickly you'd sufur a while because your such a piece off shit and you know that its what you deserve. Well I do everytime I get behind the wheel, and lately I've been really wanting to do it ... really and it hurts so much not to do it. I cringe when I pass up the tree and continue on to my destination.Please dotn feel bad for me and please dont think this is one of those desperate cries for help I'm just being honest and saying how I feel. I dont know if I will drive into a tree but I dont think I will, it just depends on how much I want to hurt next time I get a chance. Well I'm going to go now and stare at the wall in my room driving anywhere is way to risky.
P.S. I dont really hate everyone I just hate what they allow theirselves to be. I want so much for you all to live up to your potential, but the world has made us all little peices of shit, if you want I'd love to try and change that, perhaps we can try together U to the N to the I to the Y