everybody feels like this sometimes, denise. i think that is the most important thing to understand. it is normal. we are human and built to ride a roller coaster of emotions.
as far as how you think people see you... more often than not you (you in general, not you, denise) dont see yourself from other peoples eyes. you might think that you are, but it is not true. generally what happens when i am going through one of these phases is that i see my good traits and then i think that people see me as being stuck up for them... something like this. but it is not true. people are generally so busy analyzing themselves that they dont have time to analyze you. that doesnt mean people might not have bad feelings towards you... but i find that that is generally due to some kind of direct attack on the person, small an unintended as it may be.
well basically i just want to say: you are so goddamned gorgeous and make super good grades and of course i am envious of that!! but i never was like, "oh, denise she is a bad person because she has great traits." i always found you nice and social. even though i was never really physically in the vicinity for very long.
you know something cool.... when my brain was talking, trying to get out this post, it said "person" at one point, but what came out on the keyboard was "people." the brain is strange.
I am glad you responded, Alix. You are totally right, this is normal. Sometimes it is difficult to see the forest through the trees, and it is just as difficult to see your fellow travellers through the big trunks of trees!
Thank you for your opinions, it really made me feel good, and less.... alone in this strange thought-world.
as far as how you think people see you... more often than not you (you in general, not you, denise) dont see yourself from other peoples eyes. you might think that you are, but it is not true. generally what happens when i am going through one of these phases is that i see my good traits and then i think that people see me as being stuck up for them... something like this. but it is not true. people are generally so busy analyzing themselves that they dont have time to analyze you. that doesnt mean people might not have bad feelings towards you... but i find that that is generally due to some kind of direct attack on the person, small an unintended as it may be.
well basically i just want to say: you are so goddamned gorgeous and make super good grades and of course i am envious of that!! but i never was like, "oh, denise she is a bad person because she has great traits." i always found you nice and social. even though i was never really physically in the vicinity for very long.
you know something cool.... when my brain was talking, trying to get out this post, it said "person" at one point, but what came out on the keyboard was "people." the brain is strange.
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Thank you for your opinions, it really made me feel good, and less.... alone in this strange thought-world.
I will always feel a kinship with you.
-D
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