Time to get this party started....
Hey hey, I haven't updated in the longest time, because of many reasons. I don't have much to say, yet what I have to say, I don't want the prying eyes of AOL to see, so that puts me in kind of a dilemma, leaving you with a gap-filled story and me with dis-accomplishment at the task that was originally at hand. If that makes no sense to you, good, this is all intentional. This entry is for me to ramble on about the ups and downs of my life in the best way I see fit.
Ok even though it sounds like I'm bitchy, actually I'm not, actually right now I am probably the giddiest I have been all summer. I feel as giddy as a little grade school girl, and there ain't nothin wrong with that. However, there is something wrong that I know that right under this layer of giddiness are layers of anger/loss/pain/jealousy/loneliness , that I know I'm going to have to face eventually, even though I wish I could just concentrate on the new thing that is keeping me in this fixed state of constant ok=ness. I know that isnt right. I don't know, maybe I am just a bad person and I don't know how to have fun or whatnot. I still have fun, in my own ways. Sometimes at work, I'll be zoning and reshopping and find myself angry abuot something I had been thinking about, something that I should address, and may have addressed but I can't do it. I am so frustrated.
I am so tired right now, but at the moment all I want to do is dance around my house, listening to music, because this seems to be something that is fun. Yay for dancing! Woo! Let's see what else can I say, Work 5 days in a row sucks. Eh well, what can you do, I just hope they dont change my Sweet Week , where I am only closing on sunday night, i like the sound of my sweet week. I can do other things instead of working every night.
Don't know what else to say! Um...bye bye! I'll update before the end of the year, without fail...as if you're on the edge of your seats in anticipation.
Ok even though it sounds like I'm bitchy, actually I'm not, actually right now I am probably the giddiest I have been all summer. I feel as giddy as a little grade school girl, and there ain't nothin wrong with that. However, there is something wrong that I know that right under this layer of giddiness are layers of anger/loss/pain/jealousy/loneliness , that I know I'm going to have to face eventually, even though I wish I could just concentrate on the new thing that is keeping me in this fixed state of constant ok=ness. I know that isnt right. I don't know, maybe I am just a bad person and I don't know how to have fun or whatnot. I still have fun, in my own ways. Sometimes at work, I'll be zoning and reshopping and find myself angry abuot something I had been thinking about, something that I should address, and may have addressed but I can't do it. I am so frustrated.
I am so tired right now, but at the moment all I want to do is dance around my house, listening to music, because this seems to be something that is fun. Yay for dancing! Woo! Let's see what else can I say, Work 5 days in a row sucks. Eh well, what can you do, I just hope they dont change my Sweet Week , where I am only closing on sunday night, i like the sound of my sweet week. I can do other things instead of working every night.
Don't know what else to say! Um...bye bye! I'll update before the end of the year, without fail...as if you're on the edge of your seats in anticipation.